Angelic Pig

2011-12-12T08:11:00.002+08:00

Don't know why I became so curt and short tempered.

Don't know why I became so intolerant and dull.

Don't know why I lost all compassion.

Don't know why I became so unfriendly and unkind.

Don't know why I suddenly became numb.

Wish I can become my old self.

Wish I can become more patient.

Wish I can start to feel and laugh and cry spontaneously once more.

Wish I can find that inner confidence and beauty.

Wish I am a better me.

my first wish item for x'mas!

2011-11-18T11:15:00.002+08:00

I finally have something I really hope to receive from Santa this Christmas. Haha..

It's been sooooooo cold in my office, I really hope and wish that for Christmas, Santa will give me a jacket/blazer that can keep me warm warm warm and versatile enough to match any of my work clothes.

I know that's kinda hard to get something cheap and yet so versatile and of good quality such that it can really keep me warm thus I have no idea at all how it should look like or where I can get it from. It's just a wish item that I hope will drop from the sky. HAHAHA...

So anyways, I've been brainstorming about starting my little cookie/bakes thingy and trying to come up with mascots! Haha.. Hopefully you'll see more interesting updates here soon!! ^.^

a little bit of happiness

2011-10-31T11:03:00.003+08:00

All along, I thought I was considered more of an optimistic person whose always looking on the bright side of life until... one day, my brother just shot me with a statement that burst that happy little bubble of mine. He said "why are you always so negative?".

That statement struck me so hard it sent my head spinning for a few seconds. I was really shocked. I couldn't really understand neither did I want to believe it. I strongly believe I used to be a really happy-go-lucky person but what happened??? Was it my surroundings that made me change? My life experiences in the past few years? The stress that I've got from home and hall?

What exactly happened???

So since then, which was about 2 weeks ago, I've been thinking, and pondering, and wondering but I could come to no answer. All the possible explanations I could come up with just seemed like I was pushing the blame to everyone else. I thought, perhaps it could be the hall environment and the positions that I've taken up that has turned me into this vicious, unkind creature. And probably all the drastic events that happened at home recently made it all worse. But then, I realise that, at the end of the day, it is ultimately ME that have changed and succumbed to these changes which has led me to become what I am today.

Guess I'm just angry when I get scolding from my parents for things my brother failed to do, or procrastinated doing and when I argue with them, all they say is that "can't you just do it for him?", "he's schooling what" etc etc but in actual fact, he has time to go out and play basketball, time to watch soccer and play his computer games. When I leave my baking equipment outside for a day longer, I get scolding and my sis who unfortunately happened to be at home has to suffer her scolding too. When my mum was hospitalized and could not and will not be doing housework for some time, we had agreed that we would split the chores but yet, he failed to was his own sweaty clothes and my dad had to do it. And it just wasn't fair because he wasn't busy studying for his A level chinese (which is today), nor was he busy studying for his promos but he was doing all other stuff like badminton training and watching CSI! So when my sis and I decide we should just leave the clothes there until he decides to fulfill his duty, we will not bother about it. And guess what, we had a huge argument with our mother and she went on telling the whole world what terrible sisters we are and that we couldn't even help out with the housework. She even went on to say how lousy we were even after all that I've done for her. Really made me super upset and pissed hearing her say all that.

I mean, I wouldn't have been so pissed had he been busy studying you know? But he wasn't. And we had to have such a big scolding just cause of his irresponsible attitude. And my sis who ALWAYS thinks that she's right. She and her curt and selfish thinking just doesn't give a damn how the other party feels when she says unkind things. This is only applicable towards her family members. She does NOT do this to her bf nor her friends. How ironic right. Haha.. Nonetheless, she always believes in "an eye for an eye" only towards her family. So it's been really hard having to take in all her mean words. Bleah. What's more, think its also been all the stress that I've gotten since my mum first discovered her condition which led to me having to shoulder a lot of responsibilities which made me really naggy and short tempered.

However, actually typing this down makes me realise how much more my dad had and has to go through which makes me feel really embarrassed now. Think I'm in no position to complain at all.

I'm sorry this post isn't a happy post. It's just that I really needed some outlet to pour out my woes about what a terrible person I've become and it seems so hard to change! So very hard... Feel so unfair that I'm so unappreciated in the family and everyone just seems to think so badly of me when in actual fact, it's probably half true. I have to admit when my mum scolds me cause of my siblings, I'll have the tendancy to want to scold them and blame them cause I think its just unfair I've to take their rap when its got nothing to do with me! Worse still, it isn't like I haven't been nagging at them to do their duty and when I nag, I get told off for being so naggy. Its like, nothing I do will ever be good enough for everyone and I can't just not care cause I'm the eldest, the family needs to be kept in a proper living condition, and I have to help my dad out.

I don't expect anyone to really understand what I'm talking about cause I now I'm ranting away profusely and perhaps not making sense but its just frustrating. HAI. =(

Okay. Done whining. My next step in life is aiming to self improve so that even when I get upset, I can swallow everything and not let it spillover to others. Cause only by learning how to swallow it seems, that I'll learn to regain that patience that I once had.

Yups yups. On a lighter note, I am seriously thinking of selling my home-baked stuff as a side biz. Tried another cookie recipe recently. Thought it turned out quite well (except I had cut down a little too much sugar) Hahaha. Planning to bake tons of it and give as party take home packs for my sis's birthday party come 11th Nov. Hopefully that''ll be a starting point! =D Starting to think of a logo and "shop name" already. Haha...

Sadly, I think I need some reality check though. If anyone is reading this, could you please tell me if you think practically whether or not my stuff is good enough to be sold? Hahaha..

Thanks! =D

Unluckily lucky

2011-09-23T08:28:00.002+08:00

An unlucky morning saved by "luky". =)

Here's what happened...

It was a rainy morning and traffic was exceptionally heavy. By the time I had arrived at the bus stop to walk to my work place, it was 10 minutes to 8am and the rain had become a drizzle. I had donned on a treasure (or so I thought) that I found while clearing the whole stack of shoe boxes at home that day. It was a sandal-y shoe that was navy blue in colour with a slight heel. Perfect for work. Asked my mum if I could have it since it fitted perfectly and I knew she wasn't going to wear it since she had so many pairs to play around with. In addition, it was a change from the conventional closed toe shoes that I have been wearing plus it could help to reduce that awful smell you get when wearing shoes the whole day.

So I took 3 happy steps towards the zebra crossing and suddenly, I felt the right side of my "shoe" became a little lose but I didn't think much about it. But as I took a few more steps, I felt like my ankle was no longer "strapped" onto the sole and I lifted my pants a little to check it out. To my horror, i saw that the strap had DETACHED from the sole! However, I thought I could make it at least to my office or hopefully through the whole day cause I had the front portion to hold my feet, but I was absolutely wrong. 5 steps unto the zebra crossing and the front portion CAME OFF. Literally!! Gosh! It was so bad I was contemplating if I should take off the shoe and just walk barefooted but I eventually decided against the idea and just walked with my left, dragged my right.

At this point of time, I knew I was approaching a 7-11 convenience store and boy was I praying there would at least be a few pairs of slippers on sale. A few more steps and... my left side sandal started disintegrating too! Think I seriously looked like a major joke. Just glad there weren't many people around in the wee hours of the early morning! So, I successfully made my way to 7-11 and PHEW, I saw slippers!! They aren't exactly very pretty slippers but I guess they would beat having nothing to wear and... I was lucky enough the last pair of black slippers with a cute koala bear design was my size! =D This pair of slippers was called "luky". =)

Well, that didn't end all my woes cause I was going to have a training in the afternoon and a meeting with some big shot in the early evening! It really gave me a huge headache just thinking about how to look presentable (i.e. NOT in slippers). BUt but... I must say this lucky "luky" slippers made a wrong day right.

When I arrived at my office, I dropped my boss a short e-mail asking if I had to be in proper shoes for the meeting in the evening and described a little about my little misfortune in the morning. She popped over a few minutes later and waved me into my big boss's office. =X Thankfully, she called me there to try my big boss's shoes!!! And guess what? It fitted!!! Felt a BIT lose in fact but WOAH. She was more than happy to lend me! Know why? Cause I found out she had 5 other pairs of shoes under her table! Haha. I felt so relieved and grateful at that moment cause I don't think there are many superiors out in the working world who would be so helpful and understanding. =)

I was also glad to find out from another senior that it was alright to wear slippers for the training! Aren't I lucky. =) So for the whole day, despite having a borrowed pair of shoes, I decided it was better for me to wear my slippers cause her shoes look way too expensive and with my awkward walking style (tend to put my weight on the outer side of my feet), it would be safer to wear it only if necessary.

Halfway through the training, I got an sms from my boss saying the evening meeting was cancelled! =D You can imagine just how elated I was! It really seemed like a lucky day >>>> unlucky day. ^.^

What's more, I called home to find out my mum had cooked! WHEE!!! But the experience in the morning really taught me a lesson - that it was important to have an extra pair of "something", be it slippers or shoes in the office. Hahaha.

Wanted to upload a photo of luky and my extremely horrid sandals but my laptop doesn't have bluetooth so guess I just gotta wait till I'm home!

Alright, guess I'm done ranting about yesterday. TGIF! Can't wait to see my besties tonight!!!! =)

2011-09-14T13:54:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone!

I'm back again to blog! Haha...

It's gonna be an EGGGGCITING weekend for me!

Going to stay at Fairmont Singapore hotel for 1 night on Sat AND going for HIGH TEA BUFFET at Ellenborough Market Cafe once more! =D =D =D

It's been awhile since I've gone for high tea buffet. Just hope my super small appetite can suddenly expand and eat a lot a lot on Sat!! Heehee...

Meanwhile, I'm super looking forward to the SUBWAY DEALS!!!! Not sure if any of you have received the coupons that offers different subway meals during different days at only $5.90! It's cool right?? And its the regular meal with 2 cookies! haha.. TODAY its BUY 1 GET 1 FREE!! With any purchase of a 22oz drink.. hahaha... so Subway fans like me... go make use of the offer!! =)

Well, nothing very exciting has happened this week... think the most exciting would have to be playing lanterns at my grandparents place for 1 last time cause the place's been sold. =( Eating horrific amounts of mooncake on Sunday, followed by the $50 HUGE MAO SHAN WANG mooncake from Goodwood Park Hotel on Monday - a gift from my sis's bf. And we've got a mountain more to finish. Haha.. Any mooncake fans wanna lend a helping hand? Heehee..

Think i'm really going to miss my grandparents place a lot after growing up with it for 23 years now.. ah wells... things change, people change, but i just hope that at the end of the day, the relationship stays unmoved. (Speaking in relation to my family stuff =X)

Alrightie! Think I'm done updating for now. Still haven't uploaded any photos I know.. will do that soon!! Going out for dinner tonight with Cel, Grace and Meiqian. Can't wait to hear updates from them! =)

Meanwhile, take care all my dearest friends! =)

Updates after 45 days of work

2011-09-07T09:14:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone!

I'm finally updating after my official start of adult life.

It's been 45 days since I first started working and... well, I wouldn't say this is what I had in mind when I first accepted the job. During the first few weeks, there were many a time I was so free I was literally doing nothing. Then chatting with my Uncle over 1 weekend set me thinking of where I want to go in future and if the prospects this job will bring. Furthermore, this place is really really far from home. It takes me at least an hour and a half to get home everyday. I mean my dad alights me off at NUS in the morning for now, but what happens when we have to sell the car and when he retires? However, the work environment here is wonderful - colleagues are really nice, welfare from the company is not bad (we get like 3 buffets for a 4-hour training! Just where to find this kinda welfare right?!)

So that week was really tormenting for me. I kept thinking what was the right course of action I should take. Should I start looking out for new jobs? But it hasn't even been a month at that time! After much advice from my friends and a whole lot of internal debate within myself, I decided I should give it a few more months before deciding whether or not to call it quits.

After 1 month plus, I would say I've learnt more things, although very specific but at least I'm learning more about the education system in the healthcare industry, doing slightly more stuff now, although still very very administrative, but I guess that's all part of learning to move on to something bigger. In here, there are so many jargons and rules and regulations it really take time and effort to learn them. They can't be studied off a book cause its the new queries and issues that leads you to realise the numerous stuff you don't know about. Its really only sitting through those meetings and addressing those issues will I learn more.

In conclusion, I told myself I have to be patient and wait and slowly learn more. It isn't exactly that WOAH in terms of prospects, but I realise everyone here works towards a certain goal that I personally believe in and that's for the betterment of better healthcare. After those visits to the hospitals and time spent on doctor visits, I firmly believe in the need for quality healthcare for our society. Hopefully with this belief, it will pull me through to something I would never have expect. =)

Okay! Done with the updates!

Now, having received my first pay just last week or so, I've been slowly realizing part of my many goals in life and that is... to finally be able to give my parents and grandparents allowance and treat my loved ones with my own $$!!! =D So super happy when I saw how happy my grandparents were when I first gave them some $$. SO were my parents! =D Really felt very good.

It felt awesome when I treated my maternal grandparents and uncle's family during Hari Raya Puasa. We didn't go anywhere expensive, just somewhere near their place called Happy Seafood Kampong at Tagore Lane. Don't have photos with me now but will add some in here one I have them! =D

Next treat is today to my Nanny and her family. This family brought me up when I was young and my jie has showered me with gifts and numerous treats ever since. I'm so glad I'm finally able to foot the bill for once. =) Looking forward max to tonight! wheeee....

Other than that, I've got a few more treats upcoming, will update them as they pass!

Meanwhile, take care everybody! *HUGZ*

I am back =)

2011-07-22T12:37:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone (or rather, whoever actually still checks my blog out)!

Just wanted to share this really lovely song... didn't want to post it on facebook cause I thought it'll be rather odd. Haha. Got to know this song through the Korean drama "Secret Garden" and this song is "That Man" by Baek Ji Young.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v0Kf43etzDA&feature=player_embedded

This is the video with the lyrics. It's sooooo nice. I think this is the first Korean song that I really fell in love with.

Guess why I like it so much is cause I think it reflects really well each girl's inner dream i.e. to have a man love her so deeply. Haha.. Or at least... it's my wish to find a man that'll love me deeply, and of course, it has to be two way.. Until such a time... I think singlehood really rocks. HAHA. I enjoy this freedom of choice as to where I want to go, what I want to do, who I want to hang out with. Perhaps that's why so many ladies are unmarried today! hahaha...

Think I watched too many Korean dramas already huh... Starting to hope for a romantic and lasting kinda love. Ah wells, think that drama is probably the last I'll watch in a reallyyyyy long time. Anyhow, that show is really very nice. And its not too long either! So if you've got a bit of time every night, can go watch this show!! =)

Monday is going to be the start of a brand new life - the WORKING life. Just to update everyone, I've landed myself a job as an executive in the medical affairs - education department in NUHS. It's located just beside PGP (SO FAR i know.. =S). What I was told is that I'll be in charge of budgeting stuff, but what exactly... I'll have to wait till Mon to find out! =)

As of now.. I haven't been doing much.. just a bit of baking. Baked chocolate hazelnut biscotti recently. Tried it twice and the second try was great! =D I must say though, that this big break before my official start of life as an adult has been the most fruitful ever! Went to Taiwan for my grad trip, came back and did wake-boarding with besties, successfully stuffed all my hall clothes into my wardrobe, cleared my room a little, and met up with a lot of friends.. or rather.. been out a lot. Haha... totally leading the life of a slacker.

Yup yup.. think that's all for now.. I'm not sure when my next update will be, but I hope when I do... I'll bring more exciting news. =)

money woes

2010-10-22T01:23:00.003+08:00

This week hasn't been great for me. =(

Got caught for my fridge... a really unlucky incident...
That's gonna really cost me a bomb...

Then today, we just celebrated our 30th Anniversary October babies birthday and cause I was sooo excited over a nice cake, it ended up some of them couldn't consume the cake. Thus, I decided it was only right for me to pay for 1 of them. Think that must be the most expensive slice of cake I've ever eaten. Haha...

Now... I'm really really broke and I don't want to trouble my parents anymore and so I'm on a "SAVE MONEY" mission. Gonna skip quite a bit of lunch dates and eat more home-made sandwiches from now on I think. Haha... But don't worry! I'll vary my diet with cereal and yoghurt! My fav!!! =D

Anyways, sorry this post sounds so sad but I just needed an outlet and I don't think many people read compared to facebook so I thought it'd be safer here as an outlet. Ah wells...

Well! Tomorrow will be a better day right! =D

Okie dokes!
Take care everyone!! =)

Strictly Panckes

2010-10-13T15:26:00.006+08:00

10th Oct - Strictly Pancakes

Made a reservation for this family outing to Strictly Pancakes on Fri for Sun 2.30pm but when we arrived on Sun at 2.20pm, they weren't ready for us at all! Haha. Wouldn't blame them for that though, good business then. Anyway, we got seated only at about 2.40pm, and decided our orders pretty quickly.

However, we ran into a few "ran out of" items. They told us they had run out of coffee only while we were placing out orders. So we had to redecide our orders. So instead of latte etc, my uncle and mum decided on iced tea thinking it was the brewed kind. My bro on the other hand wanted to order their "Beef-me up" only to be told they ran out of mushrooms, but he suggested replacing it with any sides and my bro chose bacon.

Waiting time for food was alright however, they had forgotten my Uncle's "bananas-scotched" order and we had to wait almost 20mins just for that which was rather disappointing cause the rest of us had to start eating first since some of us ordered their dessert pancakes.

Serving portion was alright, however, for the type of food I was eating, I found the price rather pricey. Anyhow, it was worth a try.

The overall ambiance was not bad and the service crew was quite polite. Sadly, it didn't leave me with the "I WANT TO GO BACK AGAIN" feel cause I found out while we were on the car that we were charged extra for the bacon that was supposed to be in replacement for the mushrooms. It was an additional $2.50!! And the iced tea turned out to be CANNED lemon tea. =X But, we did enjoy a 10% off total bill thanks to the student discount they offered, so guess that made things a little better? Haha...

Maple syrup and garlic butter

Chocolate peanut butter milkshake

Chicken Ala King

Apples and Cinnamon

What-a-spread!

Beef me up!

Strawberries & Co.

Bananas-scotched

So this ends our Strictly Pancakes outing. You could check up their website http://www.strictlypancakes.com.sg/index.html for more details on their menu. Their weekend breakfast look like its worth a try! =) Just a note: their weekend breakfast is only available till 12noon yeah! =)

Moving on, whilst on our way back to our grands, we drove past Rex theater and my uncle started reminiscing about the past! And he recalled that he and my mum used to go buy curry puffs from somewhere near there so we decided to turn into a street (not quite sure where myself) to take a look if it's still there and... it was!!!!

Here it is... still going strong after 35 year

It was pretty tasty! Haha... not sure of the price though but it was just amazing to have found someplace after sooooooo long! =)

Alrightie! Shall end off here... Going to have a feast again this Fri so be sure to look out for more photos ya! =D

Tiffin Room

2010-10-09T00:13:00.004+08:00

7 Oct - Tiffin Room High Tea!

Alright... pictures first! =)

3-tier tea stand that was on every table

the first round of food... (apologies for the ugly model. hehe)

desserts!

desserts part 2! (sorry we were so greedy we finished eating before we took photo. haha.. there were 2 different bread and butter puddings fyi)

So here are some of the pics from that place. Wish I had taken more pics though. Anyhow, the food wasn't too bad, the dim sum was yummy =) The sandwiches were pretty mediocre, the desserts were pretty nice. Think their blackforest cake was lovely... but overall, not much variety but amazing filling!!!! Really ate till I was on the verge of puking .Haha... Anyhow, all in all, I think I still prefer the Bar & Billiard Room high tea when they were still serving it. Haha...

Gonna go try out Strictly Pancakes this Sunday if all goes well... WITH MY FAMILY!!! =D =D =D Can't wait. Hehehe...

Yups yups... so meanwhile, everybody take care and have a good weekend! =)

Republic of Steak =(

2010-10-05T11:40:00.006+08:00

Time to continue on October Feast!! =D

4th Oct - Republic of Steak.

snapshot of their menu

Mushroom soup

Cowgirl Ribeye (sides: coleslaw & fries)

Grilled with with herb with asparagus sauce, sides: broccoli & mixed salad)

Chicken and sausage combo (sides: broccoli & garlic spaghetti)

Lava cake

Here's what we had for last night's dinner which was... disappointing.

Firstly, the food wasn't great, the taste wasn't very appetizing sadly. I mean its edible but I think I've tasted better elsewhere. Secondly, the portion was relatively small but that's relative I guess. Thirdly, the place was rather small so the noise was all contained within that small area so basically, ambiance was quite a turn off. Lastly, the service was lousy. Not that they were rude or whatsoever, but I think they were relatively slow and unattentive.

Oh, think I should mention the prices so you all can go and try if you really want to. Maybe the experience you'll get is different! hhaha...

Can't remember how much the ribeye was, my fish was $7.20, the chicken and sausage combo was 10.90. We added on a set which consisted of a drink, the soup and lava cake/brownie at 8.90. Not sure if there was service charge and gst cause I left slightly earlier. So yesterday's feast wasn't too great eh.. haa.. ah wells.. just glad we got to have a "Hungries" dinner together after soooooooooo long. hahaha...

Okie dokes! Will update again soon! Ciao!! =D

post after many months

2010-10-04T00:10:00.005+08:00

Helloooooo everyone!!

I'm finally back.. haha..
Decided to make a short post about my super happening week ahead and a little about the nice places that I've recently visited (to eat as usual). =D

So to start my October feast...
On Childrens' Day, my besties and I headed to Fruit Paradise to try out their lovely looking tarts and here they are! =D

Orange Banana Tiramisu (custard base)

Mango Banana (chocolate base)

Mango (cheese base)

So basically their tarts are built on 3 main types of base, and by base, I refer to that small layer of thing (not cream) just above the tart base (which is that dark brown thing). I think the chocolate base tasted the nicest so if you do try that place out, pick something with the chocolate base alright? haha... Didn't quite enjoy it on the whole though cause mine (mango) was made of like 70% cream as you can see from the picture. And I hate cream! Their tasteless and squishy! haha.. Plus, that place is kinda pricey. All the tarts you see above are $6.80 per slice.

They are having some tea time promotion now... not sure about the details but I think you can get any slice of tart and their tea/coffee at 9.80++.

On 2nd of October...
I dated my sis to...... OBOLO!!! =D

Milk-choc macademia

Noisette (voted as Strait's Times top 50 yummiest cakes in S'pore)

Obolo is located around Katong area, for more information about the place, just google Obolo! haha... Their website will definitely make you salivate. Hahaha!
Anyways, I happened to discover that shop after a short walk along Katong street that day and after looking at the newspaper articles and checking out their website, I told my sis I MUST try their Noisette and it was definitely worth the visit. =)

Although I must say for a cheapskate Auntie like me, paying $7.20++(due to g.s.t) was slightly above my ideal price for a slice of cake, I enjoyed it nonetheless. =)

My sister's choice was a cheesecake thingy, and it was quite nice with big whole macademia nuts in it. Her's was $7.20++ as well.

I think that shop's pretty known for their macroons cause the subsequent customers that came in bought macroons in like half a dozen at least!

Well... so I end my little October feast here for awhile... I'll be back with more foodie updates cause this week....

Mon - Republic of Steak!
Tues - Blk MAF
Wed - TIFFIN ROOM HIGH TEA!! WHEEEEEEEE
Thurs - Freshie's Supper! =D

So be sure to look out for more yummylicious pics eh! =D

Take care everyone and have a great week!! =)

2010-08-20T01:31:00.002+08:00

note to self:

1) stop being so defensive
2) be more patient
3) be more meticulous
4) start studying
5) be a little more numb
6) stay sane. haha.

End of note to self.

2010-07-24T01:39:00.000+08:00

~ My most special birthday ever~

I think I did one of the most embarrassing thing ever. I wrote a note on facebook with the intention to keep it as a memoir cause I didn't want to post about this special special birthday celebration until I got the photos from Siao Er which I have just gotten and thus, this long overdued post! Haha.. And I cleverly assumed that clicking publish on facebook just meant that I could see the post but no!! I didn't expect it'll appear on everyone's home page!! And worse still, I didn't expect that people will read it!! =X Urgh. But anyways, since I sorta summarized everything there, I decided to just paste the whole note thingy here and added a bit more details. haha.. so here it goes =)

I think I'm one of the luckiest people on earth. =)

My first birthday celebration was with my ex whose now a good friend on the 2nd of July at 1-caramel. The cakes were fantabulous! Their tea time special is definitely worth a second visit. =) Oh, and I got my first birthday present too! A pair of butterfly earrings from Mintmark and Co! He took special effort in finding it cause I happened to mention that I lost my old pair. Thank you buddy!

My second celebration was a surprise specially planned by Siao Er on the 5th of July at Oomphatico's located at Tanglin Mall. It really came as a total surprise cause I never expected to see so many people gather to give me a surprise. Really really touched and felt bad that so many people took time off just to celebrate my birthday. The food was great! And the desserts were AWESOME as well!!! In fact, it was the first time I had a FOUR COURSE dinner which I finished almost everything! Haha... =D

Thank you all!! =)

Some special salad which I can't remember the name cause it was sooo long ago. =X

Wheat penne pasta

Red snapper =)

Chocolate lava cake with ice-cream! *smacks lips*

My third celebration which was suppose to be a surprise but didn't exactly turn out as they would like was with lovely Huiling and Sharon, this time with Lance at Olio on the 9th of July! Loved the 1-for-1 deal! =) And their brownie special was indeed delicious. Fourth celebration was the very next day with my besties at Mei yi's condo - east meadows! It was a picnic which ended off with ben and jerry's ice-cream as our cake! And I almost finished a pint of chocolate macademia ice cream myself on top of the strawberry cheesecake! Gosh! haha.. but I really really enjoy and cherish those few hours with them. =) And really sorry to Minfeng cause she couldn't get to eat her b'day cake as she's lactose intolerant! =X How terrible of us for not knowing! =X

Ben and Jerry's Chocolate Macademia and Strawberry Cheesecake!

Loves of my life. =)
My special undies present from them! hahahaa..

My fifth celebration was that very saturday night at Punggol Choon Seng Seafood restaurant with my family!! Can you just imagine how bloated I was already. It was a really expensive dinner but what touched me the most wasn't how much they were willing to spend on my birthday dinner but the fact that everyone took time out to have a dinner with me. =) By the way, we saw many many people ordering their Beijing duck. Think its another of their signature dishes. Oh, and don't be tricked by their name cause they're actually located near Changi V. haha..

"Ngo hiang" pancakes.

Xiao bai cai

Toufu with cai pu

Yam basket with diced chicken

Their signature mee goreng.

Sixth celebration was on my actual birthday at my Uncle's place!! He said dinner was to be at his place instead of my grands cause he was gonna cook up a feast since it was my birthday!! =D And it was indeed a feast!! Just look at the photos! gosh... And the bangawan solo mango cake turned out nicer than I expected. =D SO it was a sunday of family love to celebrate the day I was born. Made me felt really special. =)

My present from my little cousins! =)

Present from my air steward Uncle! =)

My seventh celebration came as a surprise from my dearest 30th Anni Comm pple on 13th of July! It was a fantastic awfully chocolate banana cake! It really really touched me that they actually remembered. =) Thank you guys so much...

And my latest (back when I was typing this part) birthday present came in the form of a WHOLE TRAY of SUPERB APPLY CRUMBLE!!! =D My date from last year FWOC surprised me close to 1am just now (morning of 16th Jul) with a whole tray of his reknown apple crumble!! I couldn't stop once I started!!! And now, there's less than half a tray left. This is in addition to a super filling dinner at B Bakery. It was a super advanced birthday treat to my ex. 1 main course and 3 cakes was what we conquered! Imagine my poor tummy working so hard! =X And before the apple crumble, clown came around with a tray of cookies that he just baked. This is indeed a super sinful night, but a very touching one too... ^.^

What an amazing 22nd birthday I just had. =) Blessed with soooo many people that care and bother about just a little me... THank you all of you for being so nice and wonderful to me. *SUPER DUPER BIG HUG* =)

Oh, and I had my eighth and final celebration Thus night 22nd of July! =) It was a dinner treat at Sushi Teh and ended off with yummy Anderson's ice-cream! No pictures of the lovely food I ate but I do have a pic of my birthday present. Haha..

Well, guess this is the end of me boasting about my numerous celebrations. Haha... Just really want to thank everyone who remembered, who took time off to celebrate with me, to take the few seconds off to wish me, to be willing to take money to get me stuff and most importantly, to be there for me as a friend. =)

Love ya'll soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.

With lots of love,
Lix

2010-07-17T20:59:00.003+08:00

~ A beautiful visit ~

I was back in hall this morning to do 30th anni stuff... really hoping that we can cover more each day and that our events would be soooo successful it'll be ingrained in the minds of everyone who attends. =)

Anyhow, I want to talk more about a special home I visited this evening and that's none other than my senior Melody!! I first came to know her (not personally) when I entered SACSS. She was the head girl then. I always had the impression of her being a sweet and responsible student. A model student in fact but I never got to know her personally.

Well, guess what, I did get to know her eventually, and that was after I came to hall!! What a coincidence right?! Haha... And before I knew it, I attended her church wedding and just a few hours ago, I had the privilege of seeing her newborn baby of 10 days!! =D Amazing isn't it!!! =D =D =D

Anyways, that's not the main focus of my update. I was initially quite skeptical about cause I'm not very close to Melfy to start with but anyhow, since Huiru initiated and did the planning, I thought, why not...
So I went and the moment I entered the house, I see her husband John right behind her, holding the door for us, then he headed to the kitchen and busied himself with cooking dinner and basically just making sure that everything was in place for her. Whilst Melfy was showing us around her house, he came by, told her its time for her to eat even though it was only 5.30pm and we learnt from Melfy that its cause she had a super early lunch. Very thoughtful ain't it? So after the mini house tour, we decided to carry baby jess before going off and Melfy was taking photos of us carrying baby jess, then he came around and volunteered to help us take a group photo and told Melfy once again to go eat. As I peered over to the dining table, the table was all set up!

Just how often do you see how love is, layed out right before your eyes, without any physical signs or actions, just simple care and concern for each other. Seeing how meticulous he was in taking care of Melfy even though they were both only 24 inspired me. It gave me a hope that I too will be able to find someone who'll take care of me especially when I'm at my weakest (that is during confinement) and will stand by me for the rest of my life. =)

And I hope that one day, you all will be able to witness this amazing love and give you faith that you too will be able to find that soul mate yeah. =)

P.S: Apologies, I'm not much of a write so this post probably won't have as great an impact as I would like it to have, but you get the idea yeah?! haha..

Here's sweet little baby Jessica! ^.^

2010-07-03T23:44:00.005+08:00

Haven't Met You Yet lyrics

Songwriters: Buble, Michael Steven; Chang, Alan; Foster, Amy;

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts,
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up, then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

And somehow I know that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility

And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get

Oh, you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you, kid
To give so much more than I get

I said love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love
(I just haven't met you yet)
Love, love, love, love
Love, love
I just haven't met you yet

This is a song used for my hall's mass dance this year.. and I fell in love with it the moment I heard it. =)

Guess many of us haven't met them yet. haha.

Well, just want to end this mini post with a sentence:
I don't need no knight in shiny armor. Just one knight whose heart I can keep.

2010-06-30T01:50:00.006+08:00

~ Dating ~

I chanced upon this SDU notebook that I got back when I was a freshman and I found the contents really interesting. Haha. So here's the main guidelines of dating.

1) The 3 BE-attitudes of a successful date - be happy, be confident and be optimistic
2) Dating is evaluation time - determine if your date is going to be your soul mate.
3) Always save the romance for the right relationship.
4) Do not fall in love with what a person can do for you, fall in love with who they are.
5) Mutual respect and admiration of each other's character and goals are critical to a lasting relationship.
6) Don't expect to find someone who loves everything you love and vice-versa - but it's wise to look for someone who shares a similar life direction and common core values.
7) Never try to mould a person you're dating to fit your "ideal" expectations.
8) Better to leave the past where it is, don't keep mementoes from failed relationships. They wil only clutter up your emotional and physical space.
9) Look your best on your dates. "To be loved for who you are", does not mean not making an effort to look your best.
10) Give your full attention to your date. Make the person feel that they are the only one around.
11) It is easier to find and maintain a meaningful, lifelong relationship by taking small steps to improve yourself.
12) Believe in yourself and avoid go-nowhere entanglements, and you will have the confidence to pursue promising relationships.
13) After consistently dating the same person, don't be afraid to broach the issue of commitment. You will simply be weeding out the commitment-phobics and impressing the commitment-minded.
14) Be sure to listen to both your head and heart and decide which thoughts you are going to listen to. Avoid negative and destructive thoughts.
15) Chemistry is important to start a relationship but, to sustain one, you need to know and identify with the other person and their goals.
16) Review the actions, conversations and interpretations that occur after a date. Notice patterns.
17) Know the character traits you are looking for so that you can see beyond your date's circumstances to discover who they are as a person.
18) Form a dating support team. Find a dating coach, seek our role models and spend time with them regularly. These are the people you can call and who can support you with activities or dates.
19) Encountering challenges in a relationship can be a positive sign. Overcoming them can bring a couple closer together.
20) Think "what can I give to this person", not "what can this person give to me".

So there they are. The golden advices on dating.
I kinda agree with most of them but I can't foresee myself every doing number 18! hahaha
And don't jump to conclusions, I'm not dating or whatever (wish I could practice a few of these advices thoguh. Haha). The only reason for this post is cause I chanced upon this book and found it rather apt for many my age. =)

Well, shall end here.

Good night everyone! =)

2010-06-29T01:00:00.004+08:00

Don't Stop Believin' - Journey

Just a small town girl
Livin' in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin' anywhere

Just a city boy
Born and raised in south Detroit
He took the midnight train goin' anywhere

A singer in a smoky room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people
Living just to find emotion
Hiding somewhere in the night

Working hard to get my fill
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice just one more time

Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people
Living just to find emotion
Hiding somewhere in the night

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight people

Don't stop believin'
Hold on
Streetlight people

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight people

My current favourite song. =)

Ok. Disclaimer - the following paragraph probably won't make sense to many but I just wanted somewhere to "pen" these thoughts down so pardon me k. haha..
I knew it all along it would turn out like that. In fact, I was getting ready to face it since I decided to put myself through the test. However, think I sorta let my heart down a little cause it moved. But I believe I'll get over it really soon. Think I was holding on to the hope that this could be a fairytale come true, hoping that I could be the one that made the difference. But guess hopes are sometimes just hopes and reality just ain't gonna give what we want. So after reality check, I'm gonna heal myself and move on. =)

2010-06-28T10:16:00.004+08:00

Ok. Now she doesn't want to take grad photos with me. Haha.

Bleah. Hate this pessimistic me. Gotta get out of this black hole soon.

Anyhow, I baked again yesterday...

MINI LEMON CHEESECAKE!!!! =)
Took the recipe off "taste.com.au".

Here's a shoutout to my sis for all the help with this cheesecake.
After a longgg day's work, we finally got to taste it at 10.45pm. Haha.. Whilst watching soccer and... it tasted GREAT!!!!!

Think it was probably cause of the added lemony taste and the interesting ginger nut biscuit base. haha...
sorry the photos aren't very nicely taken. The lighting at home wasn't very good and I used my mobile to take these photos in fact. Haha..
OH, and I'm proud of the fact I actually TRIED a topping for the first time.. lemon curd topping. And I must say, it tasted quite good. Haha...

2010-06-27T18:05:00.004+08:00

~ Never good enough for her ~

Not sure about most of you but for me, being the filial daughter was always one of my greatest goals in life. I guess ever since I learnt how to feel, I had always hoped my mum would appreciate things that I did, and let her feel like she was cared for just like how my brother cared for her. According to her, my brother was the only caring from young. In other words, his sensitive nature was inborn. Unlike my sis and I, who never really bothered about how she felt. So as I grew older, I tried time and time again to be the kind of daughter she'd be proud of. I tried to think from her point of view so that our frequency of arguments could reduce drastically. And for a few years, it did. I managed to open her up with my sudden hugs and numerous thrashing out sessions but last night, I think she officially broke my heart.

Basically my mum was upset with my dad cause he made her go to some company function at a Changi bungalow when she didn't want to. And he sort of changed the plans a little so anyways, we took a walk along the Changi Point Broadwalk. Will upload some pictures later. So anyways, thinking that we should go elsewhere to eat so everyone could be happy, I insisted that I didn't want to eat at the bungalow and that we want to go elsewhere to eat. However, after I made such a move, my mum came out of Changi Beach Club saying that my brother didn't want to eat and she already made plans and that my sis and I were just bring troublesome and my bro wanted to stay there and now because we are so troublesome, he's got to go with us.

That hurt like crazy man. I mean my initial idea was that we would bring her out since she was so unhappy in the first place but guess I was really wrong. Jackpot and my bro's wants was way more important than anything else.

It's just so hurting that no matter what I do, I'll never be good enough and never be caring enough. I don't think it's my fault I wasn't born as caring as bro and I'm glad he is. I just wish I was. I just wish I could make you happy. Feel like giving up already though. Don't even feel like celebrating my birthday cause whatever for? Don't even think I matter to her anyways.

I don't know how to describe exactly how I feel but it's just hurting. It hurt so badly I cried. And for me to cry, think that shows the extent of whatever happened yeah? haha.

Ah wells. Whatever.

Anyways, I took some really good pictures at the broadwalk. It's on my wallpaper on my hp now. If you all want the photos just let me know! Can bluetooth to ya'll. Haha..

2010-06-24T22:50:00.003+08:00

~ loveliest lunch ever and bake bake bake! =) ~

Before I start on what I baked today... let me just say I had the most awesome lunch yesterday with Sharon and Huiling. =) Can't wait to get the original photos from them! They look sooooo good!! Think I'm going there again tomorow! hahaha... Hope I can take as nice photos as we took that day.

Anyways, I just want to give a shout out to huiling.. the reason why we went to LA NONNA (holland v) in the first place. =) Oh, and credits to SHARON for recommending this lovely place. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY my dearest HUILING!!!
May all your wishes and dreams come true...
Thank you for always being so selfless. Think I sometimes take advantage of that. =(
Sorry for being mean at times...
I really hope you've enjoyed yourself that day and I look forward to the dates in the many years to come! =)
And I'm CERTAIN you'll find a GOOD HUBBY. One that'll be willing to give up as much for you as you will for him. And that guy will be such a LUCKY guy.
If anyone ever bullies you (think MR.B), let me know and I won't let him off.
Don't ever let people bully you k!
Really hope your grad trip works out.
Take care and may you always be blessed with love, joy, laughter and peace! =)
LOVE YA LOADS!! =)

Ok, so that said.
Now for what I baked today.
I baked BLACK and WHITE cupcakes! =)
It's basically choc and cheese cupcake. hahaha..

looks good? hahaha... hope to let some of ya'll try and feedback. =)
Well.. end of my post for today! =)

2010-06-21T21:27:00.007+08:00

~ my mini success story ~

I've been working the whole of the week this past week, or should I say, most of the days. Started the nets part time job thing on Monday, took up the dhoby ghaut and harbourfront clusters. Managed to complete dhoby ghaut that day. =) Did harbourfront the next. Harbourfront included Sentosa by the way. The walk from one place to another was exhausting! And the weather that day didn't help at all. Thankfully there were only 3 main places I had to go in Sentosa.

Started work as a ticketing cashier for beerfest on Wed. It was pretty fun. =) First day was like a warming up practise for us cashiers. Nothing much happened, and the day went pass quite quickly. Dinner wasn't too bad. Then came Thurs, headed to Advocceight to return all the completed forms and took up the jurong point and white sands cluster as well. Decided to drop by Jurong Point to check it out cause there were 32 shops to cover and my... was I appalled at the size of the mall!! Haven't been there in ages so I didn't know it had expanded and had become sooooo enormous! What's worse was the unit number had repeats! Totally killed myself in that few hours and covered only 12 stalls!

Huiling was really sweet, she came all the way to pay me a visit thinking I would go straight for my beerfest job like I initially said I would but I changed my mind in the end cause my bag was just way too heavy. Felt really bad for making her come all the way. Beerfest job ended around 12 plus and only reached back to hall around 1 cause the queue for cab was crazy. Was determined to finish JP on Fri so I started my day early. Headed to JP early in the morn and arrived there around 10.30am. Did my homework the night before by checking the store locator and directory online so I grouped the shops in clusters. IN other words, I planned my route so I could minimize walking. Haha.

Beerfest was insane on Friday. The crowd just came non-stop and before we knew it, it was 10pm already! Suppose to have someone taking over me for the second shift at about 11pm but the queue was so crazy I ended up reaching hall only around 1 plus 2am. Had to wake up at 8am to meet Yiwen for some YEP finance stuff the next morning then head back to White Sands to finish up whatever I took. Really glad everything went rather smoothly and had a lift to White Sands cause my parents decided to go there for lunch! =)

Worked the 2nd shift for beerfest on Sat which was from 10pm to 3am. Sat was surprisingly less busy for me. Felt kinda slack in fact.

Ok.. Think I elaborated too much on my week's happenings...
Here comes my SUCCESS STORY. That is... none other than... my
FATHERS' DAY UPSIDE DOWN BANANA CAKE!!!!
WHEE!!!!
Baked it on Sunday late morning. Had family lunch at KFC after that. Haha. It was kinda cool how we all came together to eat at a fast food joint after sooo long. And boy am I glad they had student meal on weekends as well. =D

Sun at beerfest was wayyyyyyyyy slack! There was hardly any crowd! hahaha...
Anyways, there was suppose to be a staff party after that but we were all kinda tired and just wanted to grab a few nice beers BUT.... we couldn't =( We were either not entitled to them or it was cause I didn't have the beer tokens. I mean I had a few but they were all to be given away so ya. Fortunately, Jess and Lishi were nice enough to give me their tokens and I managed to change 3 tokens for an oat aged cider! No idea how it tastes yet though. Took back a budweiser as well but for free.

Just drank Timmermans. Some Lambic drink which tasted more like sparkling juice. Haha. My sis brought it back from some birthday party she attended. Think I much prefer these kinda sweet drinks to classic beers. Haha! oh oh! Managed to try tea beer last night too.. and it was lovely! haha.

Baked another round of banana cake again and this time... it turned out even nicer!! =D
Really really happy about this mini success story of mine. Too bad there isn't much otherwise I'd love to ask if you all could sample and give me some feedback. =)

Alright. Shall go now.

Oh oh! Before I go, just want to say that beerfest was a really great experience for me cause we had a really wonderful in-charge. And she's none other than LISHI! She was really awesome! Patient and kind and caring. She really cared for our welfare, never failed to have a smile on her face when dealing with customers, and going the extra mile for them. Really kudos to her. *APPLAUSE* haha... I'm certain all the ticketing crew would agree with me. THANK YOU LISHI!!! =)

Alright. Off I go and here are some pics! =)

My lovely lovely UPSIDE DOWN BANANA CAKE! =)
HAPPY FATHERS's DAY dearest daddy!!!

It was pink ticket for the last day! Kinda regret not taking the rest of the days...

2010-06-15T23:04:00.006+08:00

Faithfully by Journey

Highway run into the midnight sun
Wheels go round and round
You're on my mind
Restless hearts sleep alone tonight
Sending all my love along the wire
They say that the road
ain't no place to start a family
Right down the line it's been you and me
And loving a music man
ain't always what it's supposed to be

Oh Girl
you stand by me
I'm forever yours
faithfully
Circus life under the big top world
We all need the clowns to make us laugh
Through space and time
Always another show
Wondering where I am lost without you
And being a part ain't easy on this love affair
Two strangers learn to fall in love again
I get the joy of rediscovering you

Oh girl
you stand by me
I'm forever yours
faithfully
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh oh
faithfully
I'm still yours
I'm forever yours
Ever yours
faithfully

I recently fell in love with this song. Think its the tune that got me addicted to it though. haha.. Anyhow, it's a nice meaningful song and I quite like the version by the Glee cast.. but after listening to the original version... i think... I prefer the original singers. Haha.. more soothing. Heh.

Sometimes, I wish things could be as simple as they used to be. Where like is simply like, no *, no fine prints, no buts and maybes. Haha.

What I want to do if I've got money

2010-06-13T22:33:00.002+08:00

~ What I would do if I had lots of money ~

I recently went to a business presentation and the speaker suggested I wrote down what I would do if money was no longer an issue. Didn't really have time to sit down and think and since I've found some time now, I'm gonna write it down. =)

1. Give $ to my parents and grandparents so they can do whatever they want.
2. Support my siblings education.
3. Open my dream cafe. =)
4. Donate to families of the lower income brackets, ensuring especially that their kids have enough to last receive adequate education.
5. Go traveling!

Hm... the list seems shorter than I expected it to be! Haha.. Guess I'll add more along the way. Now, I'm going to write down what I hope to do before I leave this world. (now money is an issue) haha.

1. To have done enough to qualify myself to be a filial daughter.
2. Open my dream cafe. =)
3. Meet up with every friend. =) =)
4. To donate to a charity
5. To visit my teachers.
6. Travel.
7. See a shooting star (which I'm lucky enough to see during my YEP trip!! =D)

Oh no.. how come my list is sooo short again! hahaha...
Well.. Alright, guess I'll leave the list as it is now..
Meanwhile... Take care everyone!!! =)

2010-06-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

~ Grateful ~

Grateful for a friend who despite her stressful work life, deprive herself of sleep just to care for me, to talk to me, to make sure I won't get hurt.

Grateful for a friend who although is being stressed out by so many other stuff always take time out to listen to me.

Grateful to a mum who introduced me baking and allowed me to bake and mess up the house everytime, and a family whose always my guinea pig whenever I bake. haha...

Thank you so much. =)

2010-06-09T20:12:00.014+08:00

~ Elated ~

I'm elated cause I just baked a successful cheesecake yesterday!!! =D =D =D
It's a chocolate oreo cheesecake!!! =)
Why I would say it's successful?
Cause... my sis said it's good enough to sell and my bro's friend was actually willing to buy it!!! HAHAHA

WHEE!!!!
Ok, I know the pics aren't that fantastic cause my camera isn't that fantastic so ya... but it tastes AWESOME. seriously. (ok, then again, I MAY be biased. Haha..)

Went to the botanic gardens this morning! =)

Before I say anything else, just a fun fact. Do you know its called the Singapore Botanic Gardens and not Botanical gardens? If you type Botanical Gardens in the iphone maps, it'll show you that the botanical gardens in Penang. Hahaha...
Anyhow, haven't been there in the longgeestttt time! haha...
Didn't manage to take many photos maybe cause we didn't stay long there cause the birds were just toooo threatening!!!
We left cause a bird shit fell right smack between us! hahahahahah...

ta-da! the reason we left botanic gardens. hahaha...
seriously it was toooo close for comfort. hahaha...

2010-05-07T02:58:00.002+08:00

my first musical

Today, I watched my first official musical ever at the Esplanade!!! CHICAGO!!! =)
The musical was great! Luckily I read up a little about it so I had a rough idea what it was about and could sorta catch the story lines and all. But I think they had quite a bit of sexual implications here and there which I really didn't understand. Thankfully, that didn't take up bulk of the musical. Haha.

Had a really sumptuous dinner before that at Shokudo at Raffles City again!! Ordered 3 main dishes and a dessert and a drink!!! Gosh. Had their cheese and mushroom omelette (my fav), salmon bamboo rice, and rosti (with the sausage and egg!), and peach with ice-cream crepe!! And there was this bottled green tea we bought which we later found out it was $5!! *faints* So dinner was really expensive. Amounted to $20 each lar. *ouch* But I enjoyed the food. Haha.

Oh! And i went to the IR!! haha... walked that dna bridge, and went into that casino building... it's HUGE!!! hahaha.. it's still rather bare inside but I think it's definitely worth a visit once its up. =)

Alrightie!! This sums my happy portion of the day.

Now for the event that got me rather unhappy about.
I'm staying in hall this semester cause I was supposedly granted the 50% off for hall stay. This subsidy is given based on what commitments you have this hols and how much they feel you can contribute to hall. So 50% off meant I only had to pay $450 for the 3 months I'll dedicate here. However, I only found out today that because my whole committee didn't get the full subsidy of 50%, our chair decided to set the subsidy as a lumpsum shared amongst all of us. And that would mean I'll have to pay $600 instead!

I mean the initiative was good, but I was just pissed that he didn't tell us earlier cause it would have changed my decision to stay so much! I mean I'm already living off my savings. I don't know how long I can last and now I've to fork out another $150. Had I known earlier I'll just move out. Well, I could still move out now but I'm just way too busy settling YEP stuff. I'm flying on THIS TUES!!! And I haven't packed at all! ARGH!!!

I just really hope that those people who weren't granted the subsidy will work their ass off as those who were suppose to be granted the full subsidy. Otherwise I'll be damn pissed. I just don't think it's fair especially for the event I/Cs.

Now I gotta think of how to scrimp and save. Bleh.

Ok, that's the unhappy portion of my day. But whatever. Overall, I had a good day today. =)
Set many dates already as well after I'm back from Chiangmai. Haha... gotta meet up with my nanny's family, besties, and many more!!! Gosh.

Well.. guess I'll end here.
Take care everyone!!! =)

2010-05-06T02:26:00.004+08:00

My most attention seeking night.

I officially announce 4th May night as my most attention seeking and receiving night in my life thus far. Nothing to be proud of in fact. Anyways, here's the gist.

As you all know, I've been complaining about this level 4000 econs mod that I'm taking and that I was close to dropping during the beginning of this semester but decided to stick on in the end.. it stressed me out sooo much I started having suicidal thoughts(stupid I know). It reached a point where I felt I had to listen to my parents' voice before I really do anything dumb and so I did. Totally broke down like a baby when I talked to them. I knew they were going to worry but I just really had to talk to someone. Felt slightly better after the phone call... Then my neighbour Chengmeng popped by cause she heard my cries! =X Felt so bad for frightening her!

Following that, Xiuqi surprised me with her visit! Was talking to her the day before and told her I was stressed and the next thing I knew, it was her with a jam filled mentos and a sweet note at my doorstep! Felt so touched! Then... Chooi and Ethel surprisingly came by and their happy dispositions made me felt a whole lot better. Ethel was so sweet she came in with a cup of therapeutic tea . By then, I told myself I had to pull myself together and START STUDYING.

Just when I was about to start, my phone rang and my mum said "girl ah, can you open the gate for us? We're downstairs.. " And i was like.. O.O!?!?!?!
So my parents came cause they were so worried for me. And they specially stopped by Katong and got my FRESHLY MADE DIMSUM!!! 4 boxes!!! my goodness. That was really a defining moment. I told myself no matter what, I must not let my parents down. They were just sooooooooooo sweet. =S

I'm one super blessed girl. Just when I thought that was the end of my most attention seeking night... rachie came back with a starbucks muffin for me! *sniffs* and told me siaoer went around calling pple in hall to check I was alright!! *double sniffs*.

So... with soooo much love, I had to WAKE UP MY IDEA and MUG. And that's what I did. Can only hope for the best now.

After the last paper, I received 1 more major surprise that marked the end of this saga of mine. Haha... I met rachie and siaoer at IMM after my paper, then siaoer very oddly said she wanted to eat macs so I was like o.O cause she hardly asks for macs... but ok.. we sat down and talked for quite a bit... then out of nowhere, this secret recipe box appeared in my face with a "nah" and it was huiling!!! *TOUCHED TO THE MAX SPIDER* It was a really really unexpected surprise! Ok, pardon my excessive use of surprise. Can't think of any other words right now. It's 4.25am! I'm so gonna die later. hahaha. So anyways, yeah.. it was a lovely apple crumble cheesecake, something i always wanted to try from secret recipe. It wasn't too bad! Think their size shrunk horribly though. haha.. THANK YOU SIAO ER once again for planning this. =)

Ok. This ends my saga. Haha. =)

*totally loved and blessed*

2010-04-14T17:03:00.002+08:00

Don't know how to title this post.

Just want to say... sometimes, it's better to just be honest about what you're doing.

Bleah. Just quite... urgh. never mind...

2010-04-10T20:46:00.003+08:00

Hello hello!

I haven't blogged anything in awhile cause I've just been wayyyy tooo busy. Too many deadlines and submissions EVERY WEEK. This sem is simply crazy. I've a presentation this coming Monday, and another assignment which I've yet to start on. And next week... is Command week! (some very important hall event) haha.

Well, just finished 1 more module, corporate finance this morning. It was a disaster. Imagine going in to sit for a paper where you could only stare blankly at cause you just don't know where to start. Total nightmare. I just really hope I don't fail so I can at least "U" this module. Sigh. I wonder what's wrong with me, don't seem to be able to sit and study at all!

Got to get out of this hole I've fallen into and pull myself together. I do not want to ruin my whole uni life. I've got a family who worked so hard for me just to be where I am today. I cannot afford to let them down.

This week's been full of ups and downs for me. Up cause I've had encounters with some amazing friends, those I never thought would actually care to show concern, which really made my day. And down cause I was pretty hurt by the selfish and unkind words and actions of some closest to me. Nonetheless, I think I've been blessed enough and anything negative that's been happening to me, I believe it's just karma. So... I've just gotta accumulate more good! Haha.

Alright, end of my random post. haha. I hope next week you'll see a much happier post! =)
Take care everyone!!!

2010-03-29T20:52:00.002+08:00

Dear fairy godmother,
please hear my plea.
Send me some tools and someone to come and fix me...

2010-03-14T02:05:00.002+08:00

~grateful~

Think I can't be any more lucky than this...

I'm talking about a totally screwed up week, including my test this morning which I stupidly lost over 40marks for, and a whole lot of time wasted in AS7 waiting for a computer to run some regressions only to come home and realise they were all done wrongly. What's worse, I've got to present the question on Mon at my 12noon tutorial, and I've got lesson at 9am. Can't do it over the weekend cause the lab's closed and it only opens on Monday at 9a.m.

Totally messed up right?

Just when I thought I needed to e-mail the lecturer and find some way to put me as the last presenter so I can rush to run the regressions after my 9-12seminar, I found a way to identify the variables in excel! And here's the part I'm soooo thankful for...

I have no idea how to run a regression on excel but Huiling knew so... she helped me run all my regressions! And she had to resort the data I sent her in order to run the regressions!!! Aren't I lucky and blessed!! I'm really very grateful I found such a friend. I mean, how many friends would willingly spend half an hour or more doing work for someone else?! Can't describe how awfully thankful I am for her... otherwise I'd be really dead on monday. Sigh.

Well...
After how much she's done for me, don't think I have any right to sigh so =) =) =)
This shows... how very blessed I am for such an awesome friend, and that anything is possible so we should always have hope. And, her willingness to help is one to be learned from. =)

THANK YOU HUILING. =)

2010-03-13T17:28:00.000+08:00

so this is how it feels like to be really upset but not able to cry... urgh.

2010-03-07T01:20:00.002+08:00

Two Is Better Than One by Boys Like Girls

[ft. Taylor Swift]
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"
Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

Don't know why i just got addicted to this song... go listen to it if you all have the time! it's really nice. =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=51-BHVbjT2Y

2010-02-26T08:45:00.003+08:00

~ What makes you HAPPY and what would you GIVE UP for it? ~

This question above is printed on a small blue piece of post-it and pasted on every one of our doors. It is actually a publicity effort by the hall production to raise awareness of KR's upcoming 30th anniversary hall production and we're suppose to pen our thoughts and they'll compile all these notes. So this morning, I decided to take some time and think about it. I'm not very good with words, but this is what I wrote,

"To see my family and friends happy makes me really happy and I would give up just about everything so they would always remain happy."

I wonder if this answer makes sense but I do hope that all you people reading this know that every time you all smile, it makes every inch of me feel very blessed and although I may not be the best kinda friend, but I'll always be here if you ever need. =)

Well, enough said about me, what about you? What makes you happy and what would you give up for it? =)

2010-02-22T12:34:00.002+08:00

=)

It feels good when you've managed to clear some stuff off your mind. Haha...

Anyways, Chingay has finally ended and I would like to thank everyone who went down to watch! THANK YOU for coming!!! =)
Hope you all had fun!

So, after Chingay ended, I was really craving for my green leaves (its a new year goodie from Glory) and green pea cookies... BUT... I went home only to find that they were ALL GONE!!!!! *sniffs* How I wish I could have flown to Katong immediately and head to Glory and get another 2 containers or something. Haha... Ah wells, guess I'll just have to wait till Saturday. Hopefully they still sell it!!! =X

Now that Chingay is over, and aside from my other commitments, I really want to push myself into giving my studies top priority. I cannot fail this sem!! =(

Well, gotta go! Take care everyone!!!

2010-02-18T23:42:00.003+08:00

~over him~

I think.... I'm going to get over my crush sooner than I thought I would... =)

I think... knowing the fact that it is and will always be a one-sided thing makes feelings a whole lot easier to fade and be transformed into another kind of feeling and I think I'm already on the road to achieving that! Well, I had always hoped that maybe one day I could be in line but I've come to realise, that's highly impossible. Like what my friend once said, if it was possible, or a mutual thing, it would have happened a long time ago. And I'm coming to accept it more now. =)

Well, kudos to me! hahaha...
Ah wells... =)

2010-02-17T11:56:00.008+08:00

~ HAPPY CNY! ~

I just read my dearest Celine's blog and I can't help but feel sooooo extremely happy for her! She sounds sooooo blissful and I'm really glad whatever happened happened. Haha... It was really worth the wait. =) WHEE!!!

So anyways, its now the 4th day of the Lunar New Year and I'm back in hall attempting to study, which hasn't been very successful thus far. This CNY has been 4 days worth of non-stop eating, every since eve of CNY. Every MINUTE I've got something in my mouth. Can you imagine?!?! Gosh... Haha...

Spent the whole 3 days of CNY with my family and I realised, I actually missed them quite a bit. Hardly had to spend time with them at all thus far with all my other commitments.
And speaking of commitments, I just got myself into another I think... haha...
It's something I've been wanting to do for the past 2 years in hall but was never given the chance, probably cause I didn't excel in the interviews, but now, I'm given another chance to take a shot at going, and despite all my other commitments, I've decided to try.

I just hope I don't kill myself. =X

Anyhow, time for me to get back to work.
Don't know why, but I actually miss many of my friends back in hall, especially my besties. =X

Take care everyone!
Zhu da jia xing nian kuai le, shen ti jian kang, xin xiang shi cheng, wan shi ru yi, tian tian kai xin! =)

CNY 2010

2010-02-14T02:07:00.002+08:00

~CNY 2010~

Once again, its Lunar New Year!!! The time to grow fat! haha...

Tonight's reunion dinner was at a new restaurant just nearby Bedok 86, think the name was Chun Lee Restaurant or something like that. It's a teochew restaurant which basically meant all their dishes were cooked teochew style, and I must say, they're avid fans of parsley and celery. Haha... The food was pretty good! It was a pity I didn't manage to take any pictures of them at all!

Well, it's time to list some CNY resolutions once again...
1) To really put in the effort to mug.
2) To be a more filial daughter, a kinder friend, and on the whole, a better person.
3) To persevere no matter how tough the going gets.

General resolutions but I know they're bound to be of use along the way, especially this coming semester.

Oh! And here's my new year wishes for all my dearest friends....
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!
Xi wang da xia shi shi shun li, shen ti jian kang, wan shi ru yi, kai kai xin xin! =)

And this is specially to my besties...
Didn't know you all read my blog!! Miss you guys sooooooooo much!!!
Hope we can meet up soon...
Please take care and even though I may not be physically available, but I'll always be around to take your calls and listen to your problems k.
Love ya'll!!

2010-02-12T02:03:00.004+08:00

~ crush ~

Crush by Mandy Moore

You know everything that I'm afraid of
You do everything I wish I did
Everybody wants you, everybody loves you

I know I should tell you how i feel
I wish everyone would disappear
Every time you call me, I'm too scared to be me
And I'm too shy to say

Ooh, I've got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that I do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me things that i don't want to know
I just want to hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way

Ooh, I've got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that I do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

Ooh, I wish I could tell somebody
But there's no one to talk to, nobody knows
I've got a crush on you
A crush on you, I've got a crush

You say everything that no one says
But I feel everything that you're afraid to feel
I will always want you, I will always love you
I've got a crush...

I've got a crush who thinks I've got a a crush on another guy. Haha...
So, in other words, I've got 2 crushes? hahaha... So greedy right. The other one is more like an eye candy though... ah wells. And my crush... is just utterly impossible for anything to happen so maybe its time to change crush. Haha!
Anyhow, this song is just stuck in my head so thought I'd just share! ^.^

2010-02-10T13:45:00.003+08:00

~ weird ~

My bestie has always been crazy, and I think, she has just brought her insanity to a new level. Haha.. She has introduced me a new friend in hope that he'll recover faster and I, really hope I'll be of some help. haha.

Anyways, my reason for blogging today is cause...
there's this crazy thought going on in my head for some time and I have found no solution to it. And maybe, the only solution is to get out of here. Pardon me if I start to sound nonsensical but this post really can't get any more explicit. Haha... =)
I don't know what I'm thinking, or why I'm feeling this way when I knew all along it was impossible. I don't know why I always have this shimmer of hope every time I decide that its over, that I should just wake up from my dreams. I just thought I could become your pillar if the need ever arise but I've come to realise, I'm actually nothing much to you. Not a very important someone, just a spare tyre when you need. This actually sounds very childish. Haha. I've been trying to pull away, but every time when I think I'm close to success, I just fall all over again. And what makes it worse is that I don't seem to mind, even though sometimes, it does hurt a little. BUT, after what I saw yesterday, I come to realise that I was wrong thinking you could have no one at your lowest moment. My hopes have all along been self-given. I know now, I can really put my foot down and just disappear, or at least, make you disappear from that place inside that "impossible" portion in my heart. I know I've gotta stop feeling like this if I don't want to lose this special friend. And somehow, I know I'll be strong enough this time. =)

2010-02-07T23:50:00.002+08:00

~ turn me over ~

SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!

This semester has been hellish from day one. It has been so busy I've hardly had time to catch up with school work! And worst of all, I feel like I'm losing my humanity. Looking back, I was a know-nothing girl back in year one. Everyone was nice to me and I was nice.. or at least, I thought I was nice enough not to make many hate me. But now, I've become so bitchy I can't stand myself! I keep complaining and bitching about people. WHY????!!!

I know for sure I'm starting to notice more things that I wouldn't have. I notice people's selfishness way more now. I'm starting to experience more of it and... I don't know how to react. I feel angry and can't seem to accept the fact that this is all just human nature. And I start to bitch. After I'm done bitching, I feel horrid. Like really guilty and mean. But bitching is like an outlet, an outlet for all those negative vibes I'm experiencing that are just making me go insane.

I totally need to change. I really need to put a foot down and try to change myself. My brain needs to be scrubbed and refreshed and sprinkled with some "goodness" water.

I'm going to make a chinese new year resolution now.

I want to be a better person. A better daughter, friend and human being.
And I will be.

2010-02-05T02:09:00.001+08:00

曖昧

曖昧讓人受盡委屈找不到相愛的證據
何時該前進何時該放棄連擁抱都沒有勇氣

只能陪你到這裡畢竟有些事不可以
超過了友情還不到愛情遠方就要下雨的風景

到底該不該哭泣想太多是我還是你我很不服氣
也開始懷疑眼前的人是不是同一個真實的你

曖昧讓人受盡委屈找不到相愛的證據
何時該前進何時該放棄連擁抱都沒有勇氣

曖昧讓人變得貪心直到等待失去意義
無奈我和你寫不出結局放遺憾的美麗停在這裡

2010-02-01T17:39:00.002+08:00

~ fairytale stories ~

Some day my prince will come
Some day we'll meet again
And away to his castle we'll go
To be happy forever I know

Some day when spring is here
We'll find our love anew
And the birds will sing
And wedding bells will ring
Some day when my dreams come true.

Sounds familiar?
Do you recall this short song from Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs?

How many of us still wish our Prince Charming would come and sweep us off our feet?

I do! =)

And seeing how my dearest Celine finally got her Prince Charming after one BIG LOOP, and having seen how my dearest Meiyi got together with Timothy back then just helped me regain faith that fairytales sometimes... just SOMETIMES... do come true. And I, shall hope that I fall into this "SOMETIMES". =)

Well, why do I regard their stories as fairytale dreams come true?
Cause both pairs went through so much together before realizing they were meant to be together. It was the kind of, everyone KNOWS they SHOULD be together BUT they insist on staying two separate entities cause they never believed they'd fall for each other.
Haha...

O.k, maybe not everyone will agree with me on their stories being fairytales but seeing both friends going through what they've been through to what they've become today was really heartening for me. And it definitely left my heart smiling for a really long time. =)

Lucky - Jason Mraz

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fell the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Well, maybe I don't make any sense, but basically, I just want to say that fairytales do come true... so let's all keep a little faith.

Going off soon, got a match later on. Not sure how it'll go but I'm going to try my best and I hope my team does so too. =)

Take care all!! =)

2010-01-29T00:58:00.003+08:00

~ My today ~

My today was made of a module's tutorial that nearly made me cry,
Made of my experience with what a human being's selfishness is capable of,
Made of realization that my happy-go-lucky self could soon be gone,
Made of seeing players with low morale but can only look on helplessly,
Made of packing goodie bags,
Made of a training in hope that tomorrow's game will be O.K,
Made of hope that Sat will be a major success,
Lastly,
Made of the want to just get some rest and study.

2010-01-27T02:28:00.002+08:00

~ thankful ~

After a day's long of training, supporting and everything else except school work, it was very heartening to see a bottle of glucosamine and a stack of photocopied notes on my table. Beside them was a bar of dark Dars chocolate and my ez link card. Thank you dearest Amelia for being so helpful. I'm way behind on work schedule and I can't wait to get back on track. There's so much I have to do and I'm just really grateful I have met caring friends willing to help me.

My shoulder is weird. It's kinda hurts and it just feels different. I admit it might be psychological, but I'm pretty sure, this time its more than just psychological. I just hope I can last till Monday. ARGH...

3 more days to Charity Run
2 more days to my match
a few more hours to Volleyball match and sending Johnny off. Really hope I can find transport of some sort =S

Well.. just decided to blog today cayse im just really thankful! =)

2010-01-19T09:42:00.003+08:00

~ what's in my head ~

These few weeks have been zooming past crazily fast! I feel like I'm running a race against time. Never felt so tired before. I'm not sure if its age or its just this period where everything is crammed up. I'm in 3 sports, Chingay, 30th Anniversary Comm and part of the performing team for Amplitude (choir). Trainings were close to 3 times a week but I don't go religiously for every training, choir prac has been pumped up to 3 times a week too, and Chingay is still kept at twice a week, with occasional full runs on sat. Badminton's been trying to push practices to nearly everyday or whenever we can get the hall when it's available, and 30th is meeting almost everyday cause its 2 weeks to our event.

For me, this is CRAZY. Too much to handle. What's worse, I'm still having problems settling my last module and work load this sem is... ...
I had to drop something and I decided, it was going to be choir. So here I am with less 1 commitment.

Now comes committee applications, mainly for second sem-ers and they miraculously started YEP again, with Yiwen heading the team. I think I've mentioned before how much I long to go for YEP but this year, I'm stuck with 30th and so, I had to hold back the urge to sign up because, I don't want to screw this sem up and I have already committed myself to something that really needs me during the 3 months.

Why is it that when I want to try something, it seems like everything else just doesn't seem to fit. Ok, negative thinking here and I abhor feeling this way but I'll be ok soon. Like I always will be. Just need some time... actually, all I need is just 1 more module. Just settle my mods and I'll be able to focus better.

Alright, done whining and complaining.

Now for some thought provoking stuff (or at least they seemed thought provoking to me.. haha). How can one person pretend to be so nice in front of someone yet dislike them at the same time? Ok, maybe this is kinda common. What puzzles me more is... how can one live with being so sociable with so many, yet at the end of the day, remain an empty shell? Initially I thought maybe I could do something about it, or could perhaps help change the person, but I realise, the person's so happy the way he/she is and I'm just being taken as a sidekick. Or basically, someone that'll be there anyway. However, I think.. my initial motivation is wearing off and I don't know if I should find it back because I THINK someday, this whole "fake" living is going to crumble, and I don't want that person to be facing it alone. Should I just walk away?

Don't bother if I seem like I'm talking rubbish k, as usual, I need somewhere to just vocalize my thoughts in my usual nonsensical way. As of today, I have 2 simple wishes (apart from my many other dreams and wishes) and they are...
1) get a module I want. More specifically EC4102
2) to make Charity Run a BLAST. =)

Well, on to happier stuff...
I had GOOD FOOD yesterday!!
Siao Er and I met Wilson for lunch... went to NYDC at Holland V, and I had posh spice pasta! Concluded that I much prefer tomato sauce.. haha...
After that, headed to Pacific Coffee Company for a rocky road frup!!
These 2 gave me serious bad stomachache before training but indeed kept me high and energetic all the way into the night.
Will be going out tomorrow with 3 special friends to my new found fav western (not cheap but worth I THINK) place... =D

Shall sign off here now... looking forward to the good food to make me =D

2010-01-08T14:16:00.002+08:00

~ demoralised ~

Just had badminton friendly with RH and I feel like crap. BLEAH.

I wish I can be better, stronger, faster. And actually, I think I can if only I trained more and pushed myself more during training. Feel like a weak lump of cotton wool. ARGH.

What makes me feel worse is I actually had the cheek to comment on a fellow team member's playing saying that her service is weak even though her strength way surpasses mine. I mean I didn't compare her to myself but to better players but still, I'm like thinking what right do I have to even open my mouth when I played so terribly.

This start of the year hasn't really been all bright and sunny... especially when module bidding is so uncertain.

I need to brighten up. Need something to make me happy like I was just a few months ago.
JIA YOU lix!!

2010-01-03T23:06:00.006+08:00

~ Grandpa's Birthday! ~

Yay! Finally got the photo of my sis's getup yesterday. =)

Had a birthday celebration for my grandpa just now at Putien Restaurant at Tampines Mall. It's his 82nd birthday! =)

The food was really good. =D =D =D
Take a look! =)

Ok, some humans first...
Now food. haha...

Cold Dish 1: braised salted duck

Cold Dish 2: Seaweed with shrimp

Cold dish 3: some fried fish.. can't remember the name =X but it tasted AWESOME. =D

Cold dish 4: Jellyfish

Cold dish 5: one of their signature dishes - pig's intestine =Z

Shark's fin soup

Some superb steamed fish

Irrisistable toufu

Interesting meat bun

Veg with salted egg and century egg

Fried spring chicken (i think. haha)

Putien's signature bee hoon. Thumbs up!

Dessert type 1: White fungus with lotus seed

Dessert type 2: Fruit cocktail jelly

Dessert type 3: their signature Yam paste with Gingko nut

My grandpa's HAMBURGER cake! From DJ Bakery

Looks sooooo real right. Haha...
The top layer (of the burger) is actually choc cream, and the rest is really just choc sponge cake whilst the black thing which looks so alike to red bean paste is actually blueberry paste. =) NICE.

Alrightie, that's all from my awesome dinner at Putien. Haha.

I FINISHED my CNY shopping!!! Haha... bought 3 dresses from this shop "Vogue" at Tampines 1. Hope it still looks as nice on me when CNY arrives. hahaha....

Well... hope everyone has set their new year resolutions and keep to it...
I'm currently in the midst of planning my modules for this coming semester and it's insane. I can foresee myself being super stressed real soon. =X

On a lighter note... I'M GONNA WATCH SHERLOCK HOLMES (if there aren't any last min screw-ups) haha... WITH RACHIE and BEN and other 30th comm members if they want. =)
Then after Chingay... it's FAREWELL SUPPER for Huluz and Jia Minh. Can't wait. =)

I shall end here...
Good night and take care everyone!!!

`Lucky I saw it coming and took steps to prevent myself from falling in. 2010 is going to be a whole new start.

2010-01-02T23:27:00.003+08:00

~ chillin' out ~

I was suppose to go tanning with my besties today but like I mentioned before, I think I'm jinxed, cause the sun just wasn't there and it even rained. Haha. I did manage to sit in the sun for awhile though, but as expected, my colour remains... WHITE. =Z

Anyhow, instead of heading to Sentosa as originally planned, we ended up at Meiyi's condo because.. as usual, my 2 dear friends couldn't wake up! haha... From 9am meeting time, it eventually became 12noon. I made sandwiches.. which didn't turn out very successful... but edible! haha... Look at all the food we had...

Too bad didn't take a picture of 3 of us... haha...
Really enjoyed the chilling sessions... think from now on we'll have more gatherings at Mei yi's condo. HAHAHA.

Went shopping with my sis yesterday to find an outfit for her b'day party today and... I'm proud to announce, our buys off the $10 cart shops worked wonders! WHEE!! She looked awesome! Can't wait to grab her cam and show off the pic that we took before she left. Feel rather accomplished. haha.

Going shopping again tomorrow... hope I get some good stuff for CNY! =)

December happenings!

2009-12-30T23:38:00.002+08:00

~ December happenings! ~

December has been one fast and crazy month. Done loads of stuff, ate loads of good food and became really really tired. Haha. Even though I've been resting 6 hours everyday, it never does seem enough. =S In 20 mins or so, it will be the last day of 2009 and this year... has been pretty interesting.

Many emotional periods, even up till today. Many memorial moments and days. Many 21sts and needless to say, tons of cakes. =) And now, many new resolutions to make.

In this coming year, I must learn how to have no expectations on top of my usual resolutions of being a better person, and working hard. This year, I have experienced a few times how expectation can lead to such hurting disappointment. And there's no point expecting anything from anyone because what you think should be may not be reciprocal for the other party. So now, I must teach myself how not to have expectations.

Other than that... it's too long a list to type so I'm just going to briefly talk about what this Dec has been for me. Haha. Caroling, trainings, Chingay practices, meeting with besties, and sec and jc classmates, and many more family outings that before. ^.^

Want to pick out Marina's Club Seafood restaurant in particular. Was there on Monday evening to celebrate my mum's birthday. The food was worth its price I felt. And the meal left me very happy. =D Here are some pictures!

Think if given a chance, I'd love to go back there to try again. Maybe this time in the afternoon so as to catch their lunch deals. Haha.

Well, my eyes are closing on me, think I shall hit the bed. Good night everyone!

thought it over

2009-12-23T09:50:00.003+08:00

~ a clearer mind ~

After being a frog for a night, I awoke this morning with a much clearer mind which made me felt rather immature for my behaviour last night.

Friendships aren't determined by whether we stay in hall together but what we want to do even though we aren't all staying in hall anymore. Last night, what upsetted me was when she believed she'll lose all her hall friends once she leaves hall but that's not true. At least not until she chooses not to mix around with us anymore. I know once out of hall, choir will be her main priority in school and has always been the case. And I think this hurt a little too cause I always thought hall was a place where very special friendships build. I mean, besides in hall, where else can you pack breakfast for a friend every morning, sometimes even if it meant just sleeping only 3 hours to wake up in time to pack breakfast, even do her laundry for her and in the midst of hanging it up, break your healing scap over and over again because of the way her bed is positioned? What's more, the three of us decided to do this project TOGETHER because we knew it wasn't going to be easy, but a threesome could complain together, help each other out, and be there for one another. Yet now, all these have become empty promises. That made me sad too!

I thought all those effort and pacts made meant a lot more but I was wrong. It couldn't be compared to the late nights together suppering, giving birthday surprises, and the hours spent together doing something you excel at and gain recognition for.

So, this morning, I suddenly woke up and thought, what the heck. Who cares about all the effort you've put in for this friendship, it doesn't matter at all when her heart is somewhere else. What's the point of hoping she'll stay cause of the special things hall provided? She'll never be happy anyways. Thus, I shouldn't even have thought about changing her mind and be upset over all the above.

I was brought up to never be a quitter. And I think that turned me a little cold hearted but at least I know I'll persevere no matter what. Passion sometimes doesn't come as easily as wished but I believe it can be found. And its a choice. I know once I commit to something, I literally sell my life to it. Haha. BUT, that's me.

Not everyone is willing to make the same sacrifices for the same things and she chose not to do so, and as a friend, I should just respect her decision and not have any comments about her reasons for doing so even if i disagree with them. I shouldn't expect my closer friends to be like me and persevere cause not everyone can do that. Hence, I actually felt stupid feeling upset that she decided to take the "quit" route. Haha.

Basically, after crying last night, it kinda sorted my thoughts a little.

To keep a friendship going is like choosing to clap. We can clap anytime, anywhere, BUT, we'll need both hands. Friendships are the same. It doesn't matter where you are, or what road you choose. If a friend is worth the keep, all it takes is a little effort and time and the friendship will last a long time more.

To end off, I'll like to leave a note to this special friend:
I know you'll try to finish up whatever responsibilities you're left with and I certainly hope you'll try to lighten our chair's burden by finding a replacement.
I got to admit that if you just leave and leave your spot empty, I'd be most disappointed but nonetheless, I'll trust that you have tried your very best. =)
Whether or not you choose to stay in hall anymore, I hope we can still keep the threesome friendship going by meeting up periodically. That's provided you feel the friendship is worth the keep of course! haha.
And since you've already decided on your course of action, you shouldn't feel like you're struggling anymore right? =)
No worries, you hall mates are always here for you, even if you aren't staying anymore cause hall is just a place to spend more time together, not somewhere that determines how long friendships last. =)
Whatever your decision, I believe it ain't an easy one and I know it's been through more thought than anyone can imagine. I'm really sorry if anything I said hurt you last night. I should have and will respect your decision. I'm sorry for being such a selfish and immature brat. Hope you'll forgive me. Meanwhile, take care and enjoy caroling!
Have fun at home and hope you find my slightly burnt brownie edible! Haha..
*HUGZ*

2009-12-23T00:50:00.002+08:00

I think my tears have finally found their way home cause they couldn't stop streaming down my face. It hurts to see how fragile a friendship can be. Or how things could suddenly take such a turn. Maybe we can never empathize each others pains and hardships but I thought throughout these 2 and a half years, the effort we've put in to build this friendship could be strong enough to act as some pulling back force but guess I'm wrong. Seems so negligible compared to what others have provided.

Seems like its gonna be three-some turned two. Feels like crap. haha.
But what should friends do? Let go and support right?
Seems like I've been doing that one too many a time in this month of December.
Don't have much of a choice though.
can only rely on prayer for the strength to be understanding, accepting and kind.

Gosh, haven't looked like a frog for some time.
Gribbit.

2009-12-19T23:24:00.004+08:00

~ Dinner with nanny and her family! ~

Time to update about food... AGAIN! hahaha...

These pictures were the food we ate from Shokudo at Raffles City basement. =)
I personally felt the food was nice!
I especially loved the dessert. Haha... the lady that was making the crepe took a lot of pride doing it and it was warm and crispy when i ate it. So thumbs up for that lady! =D

Finally got to watch New Moon yesterday.
It was quite a disappointment I must say. Didn't even cry! =S
Well, that could be because I didn't watch the first sequel so didn't feel much towards the movie. However, I must say, I felt the beginning was pretty boring. =S

Other than that, haven't had much chance to go out. Have been really busy with caroling these few days. And that's going to keep me busy for quite a while.
It's a whole day of caroling for me again tomorrow!
Ah wells... at least can earn a bit of pocket money I guess.

Alrightie, shall update again soon. =)
Take care everyone!!!

*Sometimes, I wish feelings were like dust. Wish they could simply be swept away under the carpet and hidden forever.*

2009-12-16T01:25:00.002+08:00

~ super busy week ~

This week is... crazy!

Actually, if there wasn't 30th, it wouldn't be so packed. Haven't been training as much as I'd like thanks to 30th comm. Haha... But I guess we did accomplish a bit in the past few days. Was really hoping Fri would be free but not anymore.. =(

Caroling practices are like 3 times a week and they always last 3 hours when they're only suppose to be 2 hours long. I think it's sometimes a major waste of time because we actually only do the whole choir combined practice in the last 15 mins! But ah wells...

Had a pretty good comm outing yesterday (Mon) and just had a very filling steamboat b'day party for Amelia. Think I had an overdose of salt due to the marination of the fish. Should have just stopped myself from eating the fish. Anyways, tummy feels weird now. Thankfully, the lovely marble cheese cake made up my tummy slightly happier! Haha... Should have left more space for it! HAHA...

Well, all the pictures are with rachie so can't upload any now...
Guess I'm going to have to turn in soon cause there's netball training at 9am later on, followed by badminton then choir and chingay. Crazy crazy day!

Thurs gonna be pretty insane too... but luckily.. I'm meeting my nanny and their family for dinner! Whee! =) Haven't seen them in quite awhile.

Guess I'll end here... Good night everyone! Sweet dreams! =)

2009-12-12T01:53:00.006+08:00

~ D & D ~

Had a really satisfying dinner and dessert date with Huiling just now! =)
We first headed to this beef kway tiao stall for dinner then headed straight to Miss Clarity Cafe for desserts!! YUMMY! hahaha...

Beef kway tiao!

My caramelized apple crumble! $5

Huiling's Mud Ozz! $5 too!

The apple crumble dessert was super satisfying for me.. totally wiped out the entire plate! hahaha. *smacks lips*.
As for Huiling's mud ooz... its super chocolaty.. like SUPER DUPER chocolaty.. so eating with the ice-cream i think, is a must. haha. But, it's delicious anyhow. ^.^

Well, so guess my dessert craving has officially been satisfied! =)
Shall go off now!
Good night!!! =)

2009-12-11T09:33:00.000+08:00

~ PS-ed ~

I got PS-ed by my ice-cream date last night. =(
Was sooooo looking forward to it. Guess the disappointment was due to the expectation.
Should have known it was too good to be true. Haha...
But well, I'm certain she had a very good reason to PS me...
Thankfully I'm meeting Huiling tonight and we're going for D&D! Dinner and desserts! haha...
So i shouldn't be sad anymore and MOVE ON. =D

If anyone has sudden cravings and want to try marble slab creamery... DATE ME! hahahaha...
Take care everyone! =)

2009-12-09T23:51:00.004+08:00

~ A rude awakening call ~

Not sure if you all remember but there was once I kinda complained about having to step up as SL right? I kinda got this rude "wake-up" call during practice just now. Kinda got a telling off by this senior and I think it was well-deserved.

Here's what's going on.
As a SL, I'm suppose to forward smses to everyone in my section to notify them of practices and AOB. And as you know, my smses are still limited cause I'm under the old student plan so I have been utilizing the internet sms function to sms all Singtel and Starhub users. As for those who are M1 users, I've been asking people to forward the sms. I know this is kinda cheapskate, but I just didn't see myself as a SL but more of a msg "forwarder". I mean I'm not good enough to teach and thus, the only reason I stepped up was just to pass msgs.
So anyhow, there was caroling practice yesterday and today and on both days, the turnout was quite bad. And since I didn't "fully" assume the role of a SL, I didn't exactly "worry" or whatsoever. I mean, I just didn't feel the urge to. Not until today.
The senior said this "as an SL, seeing the attendance is so poor, you should try to sms her personally so it'll sound more 'fierce' and more personal" and that struck me really hard.

I thought to myself. Since I decided to take up this position, irregardless of how unwilling and still rather unwilling I am, I should still do a good job cause that's what we should all do right. Carry out our responsibilities to the best of our ability.
I felt very ashamed at my negligence and ignorance.
It just reminded me so much of my haughtiness and arrogance in secondary school until the day my cca teacher-in-charge gave me the same kind of rude awakening call.
=(

When will I ever learn to be more humble and less selfish?

From tonight onwards, I shall try to be a better SL, maybe not in the teaching sense, but in garnering better attendance for practices and caroling if possible.

Speaking of caroling, our first public session will be next Friday, 18th Dec, 12.30pm at United Square! Do support the KR Choir if you can! =)

I just hope caroling sessions turn out to be a success. Bleah.
Shall end here... take care everyone!

`When you love someone, and they break your heart, don't give up on love. Have faith, restart. Just hold on... - Hold on by Jonas Brothers

2009-12-07T23:24:00.002+08:00

~ It will all get better in time ~

Better in time - Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time

~ I'm sorry if I sounded cold and harsh, but I just wanted you to know that things will be a lot easier when you choose to look at it from a different perspective. And life will seem a lot happier if you choose to let small things make you happy. It's really all about choices and that's what keeps me going. I hope you'll be able to find happiness soon. ~

2009-12-07T00:28:00.003+08:00

~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO! ~

To my handsome little brother.. HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)

May you stay cute always! haha.. *LOVES*

Moving on....
I baked Macademia Choc Chip cookies this morn! =)

Turned out not bad actually. Hehe...
Feel like trying my sunshine orange cake again but this time, using the RIGHT steps. Hahahaha...
Well, guess I'll do it if I ain't feeling too lazy! =)

Had a feast at my grands today as usual...
Good food always...
Going to patu pahat (wonder if i spelt it correctly) for a day shopping trip on the 21st of Dec! Whee!!! =) Hope i manage to get stuff...

Alright, shall keep this short. Ciao! =)

2009-12-06T13:07:00.002+08:00

~ A weekend at home ~

Mei Yi's party yesterday was.... great! =)
It was all good food and great company.
Well... at least for me it was cause I spent quite some time talking bout my concerns and they were nice enough to hear me out. It was a "go for it" or "step back" debate and the conclusion was.. to "step back". Haha... Not that I haven't decided that a long time ago already, but their reassurance and advice made me at peace with my decision. Now I just need time to clear stuff from my messed up brain. Haha...

Looking at them yesterday and thinking of those old photos really made me feel amazed how much we've grown.
Cheryl - a whole lot sexier
Cindy - still as pretty and ladylike as ever plus maturing with grace. haha..
Minfeng - still very petite, looks quite the same but prettier.. =)
Mei yi - looks like a jap/china doll with her new bangs but on the whole, getting much prettier...
Si hui (wasn't around cause she's ill, hope she's well already! but still, my thoughts included her. haha) - still as pretty as before but with a super cool tan. haha...

Well, cheers to my dearest babes! =) *HUGZ*

daddy's birthday!

2009-12-04T22:38:00.004+08:00

~ HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY DADDY!!! ~

On 2nd of Dec, my dad officially turned 53.
And on 2nd of Dec, super unfilial daughter me, actually forgot to wish him.
Well, it was the day before my last paper on the 3rd and I was super stressed about it but I think that's no excuse. So anyhow, I felt really guilty and decided to bake him a cake.

I searched for diabetic cake recipes and decided on...
SUNSHINE ORANGE CAKE! =D

All was going fine until I realise... I MIXED THE STEPS UP!!! ARGH. What a lousy baker I am, couldn't even follow the steps properly. And not to mention, I even had my sis's help! =( Thankfully, it turned out ok in the end. (the pictures below don't look very appetizing but it was very nice. hahaha)

My mummy decided to throw a tantrum and went to the beach club cause my dad had to work OT and we couldn't have dinner together as planned. =( So we're missing one in this family photo.

Anyway, here's a special something for my daddy, (pls pardon my lousy poetry skills)
- My dad -
A man who who doesn't give a damn about what he wears,
who always starts his sentence with a "no...",
and talks like he wants to pick a fight over the phone,
who critics about all the L plate, P plate drivers and red plate drivers,
who never fails to critisize my mum's cooking but doesn't know how to cook himself,
is actually, beneath all these,
an extremely filial son, whom despite not being the favoured child never fails to be the first when grandma/grandpa has a problem,
a hardworking and dedicated electrical engineer of PCS,
an all-in-one repairman who fixes just about everything in the house, from fridge to washing machines, to computers and dvd players,
an honest man who would never cheat on others,
and a wonderful dad whose always so supportive of what we do, and whose always willing to sacrifice so we can enjoy better.
So, to this wonderful dad, THANK YOU sooo very much. =)
May you always be in the pink of health. Love you!
________________________________________________________

Was suppose to head over to meiyi's place for a stayover tonight as a prelude to her b'day party tomorrow but it got cancelled cause the other babes were either too busy or just couldn't make it. =S
So to my dearest bestie, please don't be sad k! We'll make it up tomorrow k!! =)

Well, guess I'll end here now. Take care everyone!!! =)

2009-12-04T17:11:00.003+08:00

~Haircut!!~

I finally got to cut hair!!
First time in a salon!! Whee!! haha...

Spent like $19.20 in total after discount for a cut (more of trim actually) and a hair wash. First time getting my hair washed in a salon too!! hahaaha...

My cake this morning didn't turn out too bad even though I mixed the steps up!! haha.. will update more later! =)

Now I wish my hair could stay like that forever. =S

OH! and if you noticed, my blog looks slightly different right?? Like the whole thing is bigger? and the dates are centralized now??? GUESS WHY?

I EDITED THE HTML CODES MYSELF!!! WOHOO!!!!
Felt super accomplished. WHEE. hahahaha =) =) =)

FINALLY, ITS OVER!!!

2009-12-03T19:34:00.014+08:00

~FINALLY, IT'S OVER!!!~

I am soooooo very glad my exams are finally over. It's been just 2 weeks but it seemed like forever.

Anyhow, I came to a sudden realization that I have forgotten to wish my dearest daddy happy birthday yesterday!!! I am TERRIBLE. Deserve to be slapped hard. =( So anyways, for the past half an hour or so, I've been trying to find a recipe to bake a cake and redeem myself. =S Hope I get to bake tomorrow and update about it! =)

Finally got to go out today and ATE DIM SUM!!! WHEEEEE!!!!
Went to this shop in Chinatown (man, i forgot the name of the shop), and here are some pics! =)

Seaweed prawn dumpling

Char Siew Bao

Har Gao

Siew Mai

Dragon's beard prawn and banana dumpling

Overall, I thought it was not too bad, but pretty pricey. Forgot to take picture of 1 carrot cake. The total bill including nuts (felt pretty cheated for that) and 1 lime juice and 1 cup of chinese tea amounted to $22 thereabout! =X But, it definitely satisfied my dim sum cravings! =D

Well, after that... had free Starbucks coffee!!! =D And it was just shopping around with my friend. And that ends my day. =)

In this post, I would also like to dedicate a few thanks to many special people (other than my family) who have my my semester wonderfully memorable.

First, throughout this whole semester in hall, I've had 4 and a half (reason will be explained later. haha) pillars. And here's a little collage of them. =)

A collage of Rachie's present for us - "Sticky" sweets, and free Dreyer's ice-cream thanks to Rachie's wonderful marketing skills with Nestle. =)

Thank you my dearest Rach and Ben for listening to all my rants and complaints and troubles and for being my companion for this past semester. =) Thank you dearest Siao Er (here's the half!) who although is in a faraway land still bother to take time to talk to me and show care and concern and listen to my problems in the midst of her tests. I would also like to thank Andy too for being my listening ear to all my troubles and being my study partner for the last few days of exams and Mark for being a great study buddy during the first week of exams. (too bad don't have picture of Siao Er, Andy and Mark =X)

Next bunch of people I want to thank dearly are none other than my besties. =)
A collage of our last outing on 29th Sept!

Thank you guys for being there for me this semester. Don't think I could have pulled through without you all. Your encouragement and care has really given me strength and every meeting with you guys is something I really look forward too. Despite our vast differences and little topics in common, I'm so glad our friendship still held strong. LOVE you all!!! =)

Last but not least, I would like to thank 2 special friends, Huiling and Amelia who have been of great help to me this semester academically. Special mention to Huiling whose been my study partner THROUGHOUT this semester, my main source of company during study breaks, and a steadfast friend. She's brought me many nice memories, bringing me to new places and just being a ultimate sweet friend.
She even bothered to wake up early this morning just to wish me luck for my last paper! THANK YOU soooo much babe. =) *hugz*
A collage of some of our happening outings! =)

Alrightie, I conclude my longest post ever now...
Thank you all for making my life so meaningful and special.
*BIGGEST HUG EVER* =)

Take care everyone. And if I didn't thank you personally, its not cause I don't appreciate you k! i do LOVE EVERYONE *MUACKS* =)

2009-12-01T20:20:00.002+08:00

Time for a short update before I'm off to TRY and study for my LAST module - labour econs! =)

This year's exam feels exceptionally long cause its spanned over 3 weeks. Well, not exactly 3 weeks but I've stayed in hall over 3 weekends! Don't know why but this year, I'm really unsure of how I will do. I had a few rather "upsetting" papers but I really hope they won't pull down my grades too much. ARGH. Wonder what's wrong with me this semester.

Anyhow, its 1 more day before my last paper and I haven't started studying for it! Which actually means I shouldn't be here updating right. But heck, decided to take a break. Haha.

This sem has been one roller-coaster ride.
There's been good times and a fair share of bad ones too.
But overall, I think I'm growing, finding back that easily amused and easily happy self.
I hope you are too.

Well..hope I'll come up with more exciting posts soon!
Take care everyone!!

2009-11-24T20:29:00.003+08:00

Thought about it for some time last night, and suddenly, my mind seems very clear. =)
I know exactly what's going on and I shouldn't be thrown off balance otherwise. Whee... =)

"One Step At A Time" by Jordin Sparks

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's your faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

[Chorus x2]

2009-11-22T17:03:00.002+08:00

My dearest Siao Er told me this theory her friend introduced to her last time.. it's called the waflle-spaghetti theory.

Guys are like waffles, they can compartmentalize their feelings into specific sections.
Girls, are like spaghetti, we just mix everything up together.
Take feelings for example, a nice guy may have no other intentions but friendship towards a girl. A girl on the other hand, might start to get her emotions all mixed up and start falling for the guy, just cause he's nice.

See what emotional creatures we are. Haha..
So the moral of the theory is....
Girls, know what we want. If we know it won't work out, make sure we stick to that belief until something proves otherwise. =)

Ok, totally random post in the midst of exams.
I got my first paper tomorrow yet I'm here blogging. Bleah.

Good luck and take care everyone! =)

2009-11-16T20:27:00.003+08:00

I guess once in awhile we find ourselves caught up in a mess, and I did find myself a little messed up a few days ago. Pretty hard to say what was going through my mind though. Haha. Then I heard this song and it really helped me calmed my nerves. Hope it helps you all too! =)

In the midst of this stressful exam period, may we all be safe from distractions and just, do our best.

Take care everyone! And i want to meet up with everyone SOON! =)

*HUGZ*

Free by Corrinne May

I see the morning glory
It winds upon the tree
It tells the untold story of how things were meant to be
You saw the universe
Caught up in desperate dreams
You came and changed the ending
Changed it to save my fate
You led the revolution
You left your legacy
Embraced the struggle
in the face of mortality
I know I'm not alone in this
Help me believe

I can be free
I can be free from this place
Beautiful healer
Beautiful grace
Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains

It's still the same old story
This great divide
Between the want and waste
And all the hunger inside
I heard the news today
Now I'm trying to find my place
I'm just a single voice
What can I do to erase

All this misunderstanding
All this anarchy
Six degrees of separation
Sometimes it's so hard to see
That we are not alone in this
I need to believe

I can be free
I can be free from this place
Beautiful healer
Beautiful grace
Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains

2009-11-12T22:23:00.001+08:00

Starry starry night - Don McLean

Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

2009-11-11T17:57:00.001+08:00

have a sudden urge to look up into a starry night.

2009-11-03T23:48:00.003+08:00

Just some thoughts i got after hearing some stuff today...

Why is it we always only learn to treasure someone when we're going to lose them?
Why is it we only see their significance in our lives only when they're about to leave?
Why do we always go for the thrill of wanting something/person we can't get, then neglect once attained.
I wish we could all just treasure every little thing and person that comes along in our life.

It's so blatant how sometimes we just take people for granted yet, we do nothing about it.
When will people learn that to cherish someone has to start NOW, not later, not tomorrow.
I really hope to see more happy endings.

Have you ever
S Club 7

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)
Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go

2009-10-25T23:47:00.008+08:00

最幸福的事
梁文音

你撑着雨伞借我那次
已经足够我记得一辈子
我懂後来你不是不坚持
爱情本来就没万无一失
泪水离开了你的手指
那不如让它流在这信纸
我想女孩子最贴心的是
让爱的人选结束的方式

我最幸福的事当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人在左边心口保留位置是最幸福的事

可惜爱不是童话故事
不能够永远依赖着王子
才慢慢认识只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心为难你解释
我最幸福的事当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰让我们像当时拥抱最後一次

最幸福的事吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人在左边心口保留位置是最幸福的事
那一阵子有你美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕都微笑着静止
我最幸福的事牵着你的日子

一段爱从开始直至分开我们都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事对那片海用力大喊永远的样子
想得起的事那天和你傻笑着认识是最幸福的事

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cpgSy-H3H3k

=(

2009-10-20T10:34:00.003+08:00

It's bad enough the disappointment when you realise you can't even sing properly a solo part even though you're in a choir. It's worse when you've got to reassure the selected soloist that she's indeed good enough to sing. Not cause I didn't get the part, but cause I already know my singing sucks but I got to re-emphasize the fact to someone else.

SIGH. Felt quite sad after the stupid audition for solo cause I really sang damn lousily. Lke restarted don't know how many times, sang so out of tune. Major personal disappointment. Well, kind of got over that, but last night, I was made to go tell someone else she's indeed capable (and she really is, no doubt about that. She's got a really sweet voice) and reassure her that the choir supports her fully that's why she got voted for it and not me (cause she keeps thinking I'm better *FAINTS*).

I don't know if you all can get how I felt.

I mean I thought when they asked me to talk to her its because they know I can talk to her or because I'm a SL or something, but actually, it was just to convince her that she's better than me and that's why the choir chose her so she shouldn't think of pushing the responsibility to someone else. Haha. Felt quite hurt when I found out why I was being asked to persuade her.

It's like whatever I'm doing for this choir is cause I'm a person willing to do sai gang you know. The reason I'm SL is not cause I can sing, but because they need a replacement for now since the old SL stepped up to be chair and cause I come for practices often enough, and I'll bother to go sms them. Kinda sucks to know that right. Hah.

Sigh.

P.S: Those who know what I'm talking about, please just keep it here k. I really need somewhere to let it out. Thank you! =)

2009-10-17T23:19:00.002+08:00

~What makes my heart ache~

To know my bro didn't pass his piano exams and both my parents and him are under stress because my mum hopes he'll at least finish his grade 8 and his piano lessons are really costly.
To know my sis is going to work part time so as to help relieve my parents off some financial burden yet her useless elder sis isn't doing anything and enjoying herself in hall.
To know that my dad whose the sole breadwinner is working so hard to put food on our table yet I'm doing nothing about it.

I just wish I wasn't so useless and lazy and I wish I am more sensible and frugal. *sigh*
I think I should start from now.

No more over-indulgence.
No more spending on anything unnecessary.

That's my first goal. Whack me if I do otherwise k.

Anyways, here's a really nice song I'd like to share. Enjoy. =)

"So Small" - Carrie Underwood

Yeah, Yeah

[Verse 1]
What you got if you ain't got love
the kind that you just want to give away
It's okay to open up
go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
you want to shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith

[Chorus]
'Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
seem so small

[Verse 2]
It's so easy to get lost inside
a problem that seems so big at the time
it's like a river thats so wide
it swallows you whole
While you sit around thinking about what you can't change
and worrying about all the wrong things
time's flying by
moving so fast
you better make it count 'cause you can't get it back

[Chorus]
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh it sure makes everything else
Seem so small

Yeah, Yeah

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ChPAoacVen4&feature=related

pole dance class

2009-10-16T00:56:00.004+08:00

Love is not a feeling, it's a choice.
To choose to love someone with no obligations, to accept them and accommodate and be their pillar of strength is love. =)

We should not have any expectations from our partners, neither should we expect them to change for we should make the change. Our partners should be our expectations.

When we find that one person we want to share our life story with, that most probably is the person we want to spend our life with.

There'll always be someone or something in life that will leave you broken, it's up to us to let it build us or continue to break us.

Haha, sounds pretty random right?
These were some ideas that I took home from my conversation with my bestie just now.
Went to watch Cheryl and Cindy have their last pole dance class for this session.
Felt it was super... ENTERTAINING!! hahaha...
Well done babes! *HUGZ*

2009-10-08T22:46:00.007+08:00

I finally watched Fame!!!
It was quite a nice show with many nice songs and here's one of the ones that got me addicted. =)
Here it is! =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGaBztQO6bU

Try - Asher Book
If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
While your running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe I'm not ready

CHORUS
But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If I sing you a song would you sing along
Or wait till I'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If I give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful
Am I catching up to you
While your running away, to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe I'm not ready

CHORUS
But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

2x Huh huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huh huhhh

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me

2009-10-07T10:55:00.003+08:00

For all the broken hearted and those who have unintentionally broken the hearts of others, take some time off and read my friend, andy's blog post on Sun Sept 27th. It's an extract lifted from somewhere and I think it gives really some good advice on the do's and don'ts. =)

You can link to his blog from my blog! =) I think he's on the third or fourth last tab. Haha...
Meanwhile, take care everyone! *hugz*

祝我生日快樂

2009-10-03T02:05:00.002+08:00

Ben got me addicted to this song. Haha...

祝我生日快樂 - Landy Wen

我知道傷心不能改變什麼
wo zhi dao shang xing bu neng gai bian shen me

那麼　讓我誠實一點
na me rang wo cheng shi yi dian

誠實　而沒有不能控制的宣洩
cheng shi er mei you bu neng kong zhi de xuan xie

只要關上了門　不必理誰
zhi yao guan shang le men bu bi li shui

一個人坐在空蕩包廂裡面
yi ge ren zhuo zai kong dang de bao xiang li mian

手機　讓他休息一夜
shou ji rang ta xiu xi yi ye

難　想切割切掉回憶的畫面
nan xiang qie ge qie diao hui yi de hua mian

眼淚不能流過　十二點
yan lei bu neng liu guo shi er dian

生日快樂　我對自己說　蠟燭點了　寂寞涼了
sheng ri kuai le wo dui zi ji shuo la zhu dian le ji mo liang le

生日快樂　淚也融了　我要謝謝你給的　你拿走的一切
sheng ri kuai le lei ye rong le wo yao xie xie ni ge de ni na zhou de yi qie

還愛你　帶一點恨　還要時間　才能平衡
hai ai ni dai yi dian hen hai yao shi jian cai neng pin heng

熱戀傷痕　畫面重生　祝我生日～快樂
re lian shang hen hua mian chong sheng zhu wo sheng ri~kuai le

Everything in its time by Corrine May =)

2009-09-30T01:23:00.001+08:00

Everything in its time by Corrine May =)

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

Over you

2009-09-28T13:09:00.005+08:00

This is dedicated to all the broken hearts all there especially for
my dearest friend who felt the last song i posted fitted her so well.
May you be over him soon. Haha...
However, if possible, be WITH him. =)
Feels so ironic i'm putting this up but...
Enjoy dear friend!

"Over You"

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

2009-09-23T00:49:00.002+08:00

Happen to chance upon this song while listening to all my songs on itunes so just decided to share the lyrics cause i thought it was rather meaningful. =)

A little on the low side though but enjoy! =)

What hurts the most - Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

Guilty

2009-09-19T16:40:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!!

I'm feeling super guilty now.

My besties and I were thinking of going for a short holiday at the end of the year. And I cleverly assumed my family was able to give me SOME $$ to go holiday. So I'm back home and I just asked my mum about it, and... guess what. She told me, "sorry, we got not enough dough to give you. Now even thinking of selling our gold to help tide over the education."

THAT felt like a bomb exploded in my face. I can't believe I actually even thought of asking. I mean I knew about our financial status but that reminder just made me want to cry. I felt so useless and incapable. URGH. And she even apologized for not being able to let me go.

Sigh. Maybe she was right when she said she has a pretty lousy daughter last time.

Super guilty. =(

a month going.

2009-09-18T20:02:00.004+08:00

It's been a month now.

Many things have happened within this month I think. Haha.
And within this one month, I think I've found something I use to have and that's finding happiness in the simple things in life. It's quite ridiculous how some simple things can make me smile so widely but I'm enjoying it.

Maybe its cause I have more time to myself now? I think I'm on my road back to self discovery, and maybe when I've truly recovered myself will I be ready again. I think me changing in the course of 2 years has had an impact on my previous relationship.

I've finally stepped down as a blk commer, and don't know why, but I'm still all ready to give in my own little way. Maybe I'll only impact the people I'm closer to but I'm fine with that. As long as whatever I did can make someone smile, I think I'll be very contented. I think I'll find it wierd if I get to take food first or something during suppers. Haha. I'd much rather make sure everyone gets to eat first before I feel comfortable eating. Haha... And I hope they'll just let me be when the time comes.

It feels weird not doing anything on a Fri night like this... was suppose to have netball trials but it got cancelled cause of poor attendance. Shall hope that I'm not too lazy to gym later with rachie! Haha...

Well, recently, a friend shared this really beautiful song with me, and I'd like to share with everyone. Think its a pretty old song but the lyrics are really sweet. And always remember, I'm always here to listen! =)

"Fix You" by Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

2009-09-13T01:26:00.005+08:00

After listening to Sher perform this song during her birthday party, I just got addicted to it and I don't know why, its just an emo song that suits my emotion now although the content don't quite fit what i'm going through but ya. Here it is:

Desperado - Carrie Underwood

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
You been out ridin' fences for so long now
Oh, you're a hard one
I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin' you
Can hurt you somehow

Don't you draw the queen of diamonds, boy
She'll beat you if she's able
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet

Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you can't get

Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no younger
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home
And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin'
Your prison is walking through this world all alone

Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
It's hard to tell the night time from the day
You're loosin' all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you, let somebody love you,
let somebody love you, before it's too late

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=treIBdESR2s
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=djP8zIwCp3I&feature=related - oldie version

crying

2009-09-11T19:07:00.003+08:00

"Sometimes the tears fall unbidden because they have welled up inside and have nowhere else to go, but down your cheeks"

2009-08-28T10:45:00.002+08:00

The feeling of wanting to run back to where it was once comfortable and safe is suddenly overwhelming me.

I have changed.

I don't want to become who I'm not anymore.

Let me be patient and kind once more.

Let me not be tempted.

thank you

2009-08-21T10:07:00.001+08:00

thanks everyone for your care and concern. I really appreciate it. I just hope he's alright too. Since I've decided to let go, I must not regret right?

I just want to release it out. It's not coming out in tears, but I need it to come out. Someone teach me how. Sigh.

we broke up.

2009-08-18T19:44:00.003+08:00

Today, I ended my first relationship.

He is a good guy.
He loved me more than I did.
He gave me more than I gave.
He accomodated my flaws.
He became more handsome and changed since army.
But I don't know why i didn't reciprocate.
I don't know why I couldn't find enough time for him.
Things changed as time passed.
It was no longer the same.
I don't want to feel guilty for not reciprocating anymore.
I don't want to hold him back anymore.
I'm sure there is someone out there who will give him the attention and love he deserves.
He definitely deserves much more than what I've been giving him.
I want him to laugh more than he cries.
I want my heart to stop crying and start crying out loud.
I want him to find joy.
Please don't let him cry anymore because I just don't deserve it.
Please bless him with good health.
Please let his studies be good.
Please refrain him from closing up anymore.
Please take care of him.

updating

2009-08-15T17:51:00.003+08:00

I'm finally updating again MEI YI!! hahaha...

I'm glad she still bothers to read my blog. LOVE YA.. haha...

Well, another week has quickly passed and soon, school is going to really start with tutorials and all. Somehow not really looking forward to them. Currently its the IBG season and its all about sports! Looking forward to them actually, even though i can't really play. Haha.. Really hope to improve a little on volleyball and netball this time though. =Z

Anyways, it seems like KR is going to go for Chingay once again. I think next year our residents are going to be pretty burnt out especially with the celebration of our 30th anniversary.

Oh, I had a very foodful week I must say. Went for ice-cream buffet with about 20 other people at Orchard Ion. It was FANTASTIC!! Really MY kind of food. hahaha... Just had hall bash on Thurs. Managed to borrow this really pretty top from Mei qian. Super grateful to her for it. Wouldn't have know what to wear if not for her. =)

So it was a week of spending money. Well, wanted to upload some pics, but the com refuse to let me. =(

Guess you'll have to catch the pictures on facebook! =)

my date

2009-08-06T20:00:00.005+08:00

I think I've been in a bad mood pretty easily recently and I'm not sure why. It's like recently I've been seeing lots of people putting up false fronts and just left wondering how they can actually live with it. I mean it's like 3 months holidays are over and they've become this rehearsed someone. Smiley in front of those they think they need to be chummy with and with everyone else, a different self.

I guess sometimes after certain events, we all change to become another self that we don't even realise. I just hope that maybe after some time, these people that I've noticed change in will change back to their old self.

O.K. Sounds like I'm uttering rubbish once more. Man...

Anyways, I think I shall talk about my date for dating game! =D
He's been really nice, wrote me poems and baked me stuff. He baked me a fruit cake and a butter cake and just a night ago, he gave me a brownie!! SUPER NICE!! hahaha...

Oh, might as well type his poems here.

This is his first poem to me. He pasted this big smiley face and wrote this...
The smile above is nothing compared to yours...
Cause you have a smile that's lethally sweet
(yah it can light up a gazillion light bulbs, or maybe the whole of Vegas)
And it never fails to brighten up my day.
So SMILE.

Cute right... Hahaha..

Here's the second one titled Fine Sparks of Glitter.

I was blinded by these grand
constellations. Flickering in their enormity
as they stood, alone,
majestically beautiful, holding my awestruck gaze.

The lights started fading. And I
started sprinting towards them.
Slow I was, as darkness englufed me
and spat me back into reality.

I was left wondering where the litle stars
in the sky went.
I was left wondering... till I saw the glistening face of yours.

In your face lies my answer, the answer
captured by your freckles that unmistakably shine
as mysteriously as Aurora Borealis
And I thank the hand for laying
them onto your radiant face,
to be your freckles.

HAHAHA... quite funny right.
By the way, if you spotted the spelling error.. it's meant to be spelt that way cause that's how it was spelt in the poem pasted on my door. hahaha...

Quite an interesting guy lar. Never had a girlfriend before so didn't know exactly what to do for me. So ah wells.. think it was very nice of him thus far. =)

Alrightie, shall end here.. =)

Take care peeps! =)

flag day

2009-08-05T09:25:00.005+08:00

It's been a year since the last time i camped outside Kovan MRT for a day with two tin cans and a perpetual smile. And yesterday was THE DAY once again. Flag day. =)

Never really enjoyed flag day in the past two years because I felt it was tiring, and pointless. No one really knows where the money goes to anyways, and I've heard stories that a bulk of these donations actually goes to some NUSSU thing.

However, this year is different. The 20 beneficiaries listed on the can were purely beneficiaries that really needed help and I think that helped me pull through a lot this year. This time, my group headed to Woodlands. I was really lucky as I situated myself at the area where everyone was waiting for bus to get to work. Admist the long queue, I was there collecting donations from each and everyone, and since some of them had time while waiting, they decided to donate. And that's how I filled up my first tin much quicker than the rest. Also approached those sitting down and those who were standing but sleeping. Basically, I just believed no one would punch girls so might as well just be bold and approach them and it did help a little although I heard mumblings like "WA, so early one ah", and had comments like "haiyo, so early collect road tax ah". But, they weren't unkind or anything. So anyways, the traffic flow became less as time passed and soon the area that was once filled with humans soon became barren.

At about 10.15a.m, I took the bulk for my group for a rest in BK and we decided to spilt up to try the different areas the flag team had suggested to catch the lunch crowd. Here comes the first funny experience.

1. 3 of my girls stayed behind to continue collecting at Woodlands MRT whilst the rest of us decided to try Republic Poly (RP). We headed down to the bus interchange and saw bus 902 which had Republic Poly on it so my friend suggested we waited there. After 10 minutes or so, the bus still hadn't come. So i was whining a little and then.... my friend said to look at the sign.

The last bus was at 8.30a.m!!!

Stupid but hilarious.

So we went there, left 3 of them there and the rest of us started exploring Woodlands.

Left another 2 of them at some industrial estate hoping to catch the lunch time crowd. They left a little while later as there was really no one there. A freshman and I had another little adventure. We hopped on a bus as given in the instructions in search for this place called Woodgrove. Never found it but we landed at 888 Plaza instead.

I don't know why but i was pretty determined to hit the neighbourhood people and it was pretty successful for me. Filled up quite a lot in my empty second can, and here came funny experience 2.

2. I was happily collecting flags, feeling hopefuly with each person that passes by because despite them not donating, they were friendly and I really found joy standing there. =) The kids made it bearable, the kind people there who donated made it bearable. Old aunties and uncles who have problems walking properly were generous enough to donate. That made it extremely heart-warming. Nearly teared! haha. So there I was, fanning myself once in awhile when suddenly this man who was smoking at the smoking table in the coffee shop to my right came up to me and said "girl, wo juan gei ni, ni sms wo" and stuffed me a piece of tissue paper with his name and number!!! *PENGZ*

I was TERRIFIED!! I have never had such an experience when doing flag! So i was really frightened. I know most of you would think I should move away since I was alone, but i really didn't want to budge cause I like the place I was standing!! It was pretty good fengshui and I was standing in between two bakeries! The smell was fantastic!! HAHA.. I was standing right outside a maid agency by the way. I must say, they were very amused by me collecting flag cause they kept looking at me through their glass door. Hahahhahaha... Well so anyways, back to that stranger. I decided to just heck and continue standing there till I finished all the stickers on the sheet I was holding. Eventually I did and thankfully nothing happened. =) But I must say, it was really an experience in a lifetime. Later on, I found it super amusing. Hahahahha.

So the funny ends there. We headed to Clementi at around 5p.m to meet Rachie for dinner. Wanted to find that nice Surfer's Paradise slippers but it was out of stock. =Z

Had an awesome dinner at Sumo House though. Love my freshies! =)

A night of 3 firsts

2009-07-29T09:04:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was one of the most memorable days in my life thus far.
I had a day of fun and a night of three firsts!

In the morning, it was fun in the sun at Sentosa where there were a few pretty fun games and a mass dunking session which I did not manage to escape. haha... So, I was dunked.

Had lunch and headed back to hall to wash up. Left for Ginza as a block at around 5.30pm. Had early dinner and went supermarketing! =)

Here comes my first firsts: my FIRST LATE NIGHT MOVIE!!!

Later that night, around 9pm, Andy suddenly asked me and rach whether we wanted to watch midnight movie!!! So cool right! But the movie wasn't cool at all. =Z He wanted to watch Murderer, acted by Aaron Kok. Rachel decided she was up for it so we just decided to tag along in the end.

Well, the movie was erm, pretty sick. And the story line which was initially very exciting soon became -.-", but still scary. Anyhow, if you all want to watch a movie, don't catch Murderer, not exactly worth scaring yourself to find out a lame ending. Haha...

My second firsts: FIRST TIME EATING SUPPER AT GEYLANG!!!
The movie was definitely NOT worth $8, BUT, we headed to Geylang for tou huay after that and it was OK, but the company was great. =)

My third firsts: FIRST TIME AT MARINA BARRAGE!!!
So, after that, Andy decided to drive us to view marina barrage. That place was really nice!!! But the distance in, was a killer. It was a never-ending road in really.

So this ends my day of three firsts. Reached back to hall only aorund 5a.m. Haha....
Really happy I went out with them in the end. =)
Whee!!